Why, you ask. Well I just do!!! No one said that weight loss would be easy and I knew it wouldn't be. But I am stinking frustrated. There is it. I'm grumpy, mad, and frustrated at this stupid process. I weighed myself this morning (and Yes i know it isn't Wednesday, but I had to. And to be honest with you all, I do weigh myself other than just on Wednesday, but i don't feel like posting it all the time) and I was up 2 pounds. And YES I know that muscle weighs more than fat. YAY good for the people who look like body builders, but I'm not a body builder. I am a chunky girl trying to loss some freaking weight. UGGGGGG!! And then on top of that I pretty sure I have 2 shin splints. I have NEVER had shin splints before. So now what do I do? Do I stop running? Is there a stretch I can do to get rid of it? SERIOUSLY WHAT DO I DO NOW!! You guys wanted honesty and here it is. I'm tired. I am tired of not seeing the results I WANT to see. Why isn't that darn scale going down? I am eating WAY better than I did when I first started this blog and I'm exercising like a fool. So seriously, what is it?? LUCY QUIT TAKING MY FOOTBALL. I JUST WANT TO FREAKING KICK IT!!! I completely know how Charlie Brown feels now. You keep trying because you think, "This is it, I'm going it get it this time and then someone or something just yanks it from underneath you!!!" I am not trying to get sympathy from you all. I just want you to know how frustrating this is. I know that my pants are getting bigger and my clothes are fitting better and that this is all great, but maybe that is just my head playing games with me. If that stupid scale would just go down then I would know FOR sure that this is working. I NEED to see that number go down. I should have thrown my temper tantrum this morning and maybe I would have felt better. But I didn't because I thought, well tomorrow will be a better day. But the more I think about it, the more grumpy I get.
Well there it is folks. I really have nothing to say. Other than this, normally when I get mad like this I would run to the nearest store and buy a candy bar or something REALLY unhealthy. For once in my life, that doesn't sound good. I still want to eat healthy and I still want to exercise. And maybe that is a reason I am grumpy too. I don't know if I can physically exercise right now. The whole shin splint has me confused. Do you run through it? No pain, no glory. Right?!? Stupid shin splints. Why now?? Please don't pity me or feel sorry for me. I really don't want it. I just want everyone to know that this isn't all sweat and smiles. It is hard to stay positive all the time when you don't see the scale go down or when you are confused. So there it is folks, my temper tantrum in word form.
What do you do when you are down or frustrated? What do you do for shin splints?
Okay, now that I wrote this I do feel a little better. So I won't feel like this any more:
Okay that was taking during the K-state/KU game and we (K-State) was losing. It was making me sad. But to be honest, that is how I felt this morning too. So I think it is fitting.
I apologize for not being a super happy blogger today. I just can't do it every day. I have bad days and today is a bad day. I know I will get it over it. I just need to keep going. I will get there folks, believe me I am pretty darn determined to get there. But man, it would be so much better if I could kick that darn football (metaphor for seeing the scale go down). Charlie Brown, you keep kicking and I will keep on keeping on too!!
Enjoy your Tuesday everyone!