Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Beware: This blogger is grumpy!!

So today, I am feeling more like this:

Why, you ask. Well I just do!!! No one said that weight loss would be easy and I knew it wouldn't be.  But I am stinking frustrated.  There is it. I'm grumpy, mad, and frustrated at this stupid process. I weighed myself this morning (and Yes i know it isn't Wednesday, but I had to. And to be honest with you all, I do weigh myself other than just on Wednesday, but i don't feel like posting it all the time) and I was up 2 pounds. And YES I know that muscle weighs more than fat. YAY good for the people who look like body builders, but I'm not a body builder.  I am a chunky girl trying to loss some freaking weight. UGGGGGG!! And then on top of that I pretty sure I have 2 shin splints. I have NEVER had shin splints before. So now what do I do?  Do I stop running? Is there a stretch I can do to get rid of it? SERIOUSLY WHAT DO I DO NOW!! You guys wanted honesty and here it is. I'm tired.  I am tired of not seeing the results I WANT to see. Why isn't that darn scale going down? I am eating WAY better than I did when I first started this blog and I'm exercising like a fool. So seriously, what is it?? LUCY QUIT TAKING MY FOOTBALL. I JUST WANT TO FREAKING KICK IT!!! I completely know how Charlie Brown feels now. You keep trying because you think, "This is it, I'm going it get it this time and then someone or something just yanks it from underneath you!!!" I am not trying to get sympathy from you all.  I just want you to know how frustrating this is. I know that my pants are getting bigger and my clothes are fitting better and that this is all great, but maybe that is just my head playing games with me. If that stupid scale would just go down then I would know FOR sure that this is working. I NEED to see that number go down. I should have thrown my temper tantrum this morning and maybe I would have felt better.  But I didn't because I thought, well tomorrow will be a better day.  But the more I think about it, the more grumpy I get.

Well there it is folks. I really have nothing to say.  Other than this, normally when I get mad like this I would run to the nearest store and buy a candy bar or something REALLY unhealthy.  For once in my life, that doesn't sound good. I still want to eat healthy and I still want to exercise.  And maybe that is a reason I am grumpy too.  I don't know if I can physically exercise right now. The whole shin splint has me confused.  Do you run through it? No pain, no glory. Right?!? Stupid shin splints. Why now?? Please don't pity me or feel sorry for me.  I really don't want it.  I just want everyone to know that this isn't all sweat and smiles. It is hard to stay positive all the time when you don't see the scale go down or when you are confused. So there it is folks, my temper tantrum in word form. 

What do you do when you are down or frustrated? What do you do for shin splints?

Okay, now that I wrote this I do feel a little better.  So I won't feel like this any more:
Okay that was taking during the K-state/KU game and we (K-State) was losing.  It was making me sad. But to be honest, that is how I felt this morning too. So I think it is fitting.
I apologize for not being a super happy blogger today. I just can't do it every day.  I have bad days and today is a bad day. I know I will get it over it. I just need to keep going. I will get there folks, believe me I am pretty darn determined to get there.  But man, it would be so much better if I could kick that darn football (metaphor for seeing the scale go down). Charlie Brown, you keep kicking and I will keep on keeping on too!!
Enjoy your Tuesday everyone! 


  1. That's the way I feel every time I weigh myself when trying to be healthy. It so sucks! Keep going, I am sure you are already feeling better just by eating better!

  2. UGGGG! It is just frustrating. I know if I keep going, it will eventually start to go down. And I am seeing other benefits, but it is hard when that darn scale won't reflect what all the other things are saying!

  3. I'm not an expert on this, and this may not be the case, but thought it might be an interesting read anyways...

    "When most people start dieting, they slash their calories and add a large amount of exercise to their daily routine. That’s fine, but they usually cut their calories way too low. Add in the extra exercise, and all of a sudden you have an extreme calorie deficit that is working against you."


    I think this post is keepin' it real and makes your blog that much better! :)

  4. Thanks Kayla!! I thought about the whole calorie intake thing and I keep a REALLY good track on that and I'm right around 1400 calories. I orginally thought I should be at 1200 but I think that might be too low considering the P90X intense calorie burn and then when I run that is even more. I am going to give it a couple more weeks and see where I am. I may have to consult a doctor and see if he/she knows what I am doing wrong :(

    Kayla - Have you ever had shin splints?? If so, what did you do for them?

  5. Jessica, from what little I know, what to do about the shin splints depends upon the kind. They can be muscle-related or stress fractures. If they are stress fractures (and hopefully, they aren't), I think you'd have to rest, but I'm no doctor or athletic trainer. When I hike or run, I have issues with the muscles on the front of shins just hurting. To avoid them, I usually have to warm up a bit, and then stretch. I've been told that you can't fully stretch your muscles until you are warm. We always used to do a 10 minute jog prior to stretching on the Mines softball team. So you might try doing at least 5, if not 10, easy minutes on an elliptical machine, then stepping off, stretching, and doing your run. That has helped me in the past.

    In the meantime, ice your shins and take an NSAID.

    Oh, by the way, I also saw that they can be caused by overpronation, so that trip to the running store that Jennie suggested for running shoes might also fix your problem.

    As far as the weight gain, if you're pants are getting smaller still, then you're gaining muscle. You might try getting a measuring tape and taking measurements as well. Because honestly, if I had a 28" waist, I wouldn't care how much I weighed. :) If you are actually gaining weight, Kayla could be right on the calorie count. For example, the program I used allowed me a little over 1400 NET calories for losing a pound a week starting from 149. So, if I burned 300 calories working out, that would mean 1700 for intake. So, you might not be getting enough calories, throwing your body into starvation mode. It will actually slow down your metabolism. I know, I know, all this stuff is way too complicated. Of course, a third possibility is just that you were dehydrated when you weighed yourself previously, but are now doing a better job of hydrating.

    Hang in there. Things will turn around.

  6. Oh, and by the way, you're weight could go right back down. You know how I said that we're on the same weight loss schedule? I was up a couple pounds at the end of last week, despite being under my net calorie count. Now I'm back down again. Keep the faith!

  7. First off, hang in there Jess! The scale doesn't show you the whole picture and that's why I rarely use them (that and we just don't have room in our tiny bathroom:). Now for shin splints: where are you running? On a treadmill, sidewalks, running track, etc. I was getting them when I started running and then a friend watched my running form and gave me some tips to correct it. That has helped a ton!
    So hang in there and keep at it. It took awhile to get out of shape so give yourself a break. You are doing something at all and that huge!


    Jeannine - I will try the whole warming up and then stretching. I am stretching cold. I know in P90X we warm up and then stretch, i never thought to do the same for running. And I actually bought new shoes on Saturday. Now, I will add that my left leg was bothering me after I ran on Friday and I just ignored it, like a dum dum. So my guess is that I might have over done it Friday night and then Monday's run just put me over the top. :( So I am going to take a few days off of running. I AM PRAYING THEY ARE NOT STRESS FRACTURES!!

    Mandy - Thank you for the encouragement. I am running on a treadmill, but I am hoping here soon that I will be running outside. When I went to the running store they recorded how I was running and she didn't see anything wrong, but that was mostly my lower legs. I talked to a nurse and i'm going to give my legs a few days to rest and then I will try running again and see what happens. Until then she said I could still do P90X which was good to hear. But if things get worse then I guess my next step is to visit a Doc.

  9. Jessica, I doubt they are stress fractures. They could be if you are doing a bunch of jumping with P90X, but I don't think you've abused yourself enough yet for stress fractures. Soon, though. ;-)

    BTW, if you want to ice your shins, for some reason, in high school, they would freeze water in dixie cups and give us that rather than ice cubes. No clue why. I never asked.

    Don't call yourself a dum dum for ignoring it. If any of us stopped doing everything that hurt, we'd never manage to do anything.

    I hope you and your shins are feeling better soon!