Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Introducing the Red Demon

Howdy! How is your week going??

Mine isn't the best one ever, but totally not the worst either. I am mostly in a good mood because I went to the gym this morning and ran.

I always feel better on the days when I get up and go to the gym, now I just need to remember this on Monday morning at 4:30. With that said, I did not go to the gym Monday morning or Tuesday morning. 

Monday morning I was exhausted and decided I was going to enjoy the extra hour and a half of sleep! Why was I tired, well I was still recovering for the weekend.  We went to a Split Lip Rayfield concert on Saturday night and I guess I partied to hard because on Sunday I was worthless and Monday morning I was still feeling it.
None of the pics turned out very good. But the bass player is using a gas tank out of a truck or something and it has ONE string on it.  Needless to say, the band was awesome. Me consuming too much alcohol was NOT. I would like to say I am NEVER going to do that again, but I have said that all too many times and end up doing it about once a year. Yeah stupid, I know. But I had fun and I guess that is the whole point of doing things like this, HAVE FUN!
Then on Tuesday the RED DEMON arrived.  You are asking "Who is the red demon??" well the RED DEMON is myself during my FUN filled week of having my period. Yeah I said it. And I want to freaking know why men don't have to have ANYTHING like this?  I mean come on, they don't have to give birth and they don't have to turn into the Red demon once a month either!! Seriously, I call bullshit on all of this. The bloating the week before I turn into the Red Demon is horrible too, I mean I seriously feel at least 6 month pregnant and I get super emotional about EVERYTHING. It is ridiculous.  And I try my best to be nice to my husband during this time, but if I'm going to get mad it is going to be during this week/week and half (the older I get the earlier my hormones start playing with my temperament and my grumpiness starts early).  Jed asked me to pick up some nighttime diapers for R and I am pretty sure he thought he was going to melt from the look I gave him and then he immediately cooled off from the icy comment of, "Yes, I can pick them up. I will do everything."  I swear the kid (my husband, I call people my own age kid, don't ask me why) would spontaneously combust if he walked into a store that didn't sell car parts. So he was nice and offered to pick some up after work, but then added this comment, "Just tell me what kind to get him and I will pick them up." SERIOUSLY?!?!?!? In my head I say "How could you possibly not know this? What if I died on the way to work? What would you do?" And yes I know that this is dramatic and he would figure it out, but it was just irritating. So I responded with something like, "Yeah fine, I will text you the details later." And I'm pretty sure it was in the same tone as before, maybe a little colder.
Yeah I know, this isn't typically me, but I'm telling you when the Red Demon shows up, I have no idea what will come out of my mouth or how many times I will roll my eyes! YIKES!  Another reason it was annoying is because Jed and R were getting ready to walk out the door and we were already 10 minutes late and he ALWAYS tells me stuff right before one of us is walking out the door, so we can't really talk about it. For example:
Me: Have a good day; I love you. (As I am grabbing my coat)
Husband:Oh hey we are completely out of cereal. (I don't eat cereal, it is his responsibility to tell me when they are LOW).
Me: I was just at the grocery store yesterday. Fine I will swing by the store AGAIN. SIGH!!!!!! (as I shut the door)
Husband: I win (I don't know that he says that, but in my head he does!!!)
SO ANOTHER QUESTION - WHY ARE MEN SO DARN ANNOYING??? I love my husband dearly, but he drives me CRAZY at times. Like, he NEVER packs his own luggage unless he is going on a business trip.  Why do I have to pack for him?? I don't think I will ever know the answer to this.  But he gets super pissed if I forget his socks or something like that. Or Why does it take him so long in the shower?? We take about the same length of showers and I have a shit ton of hair and he doesn't! So I wash and condition my hair every day, he doesn't.  This doesn't add up. I seriously can wash my hair and shave my legs in the same amount of time it takes him to take a shower, where he does nothing but soap up. This is mind boggling and annoying, especially when we are running late.
Also, his farting drives me crazy and he knows this. Do you think he could be mature about it, NO! He just thinks it is even more funny.

Any ways, this is all part of the Red Demon talking. I am telling you, she isn't very nice. But it is what I'm dealing with right now. By Friday I will be back to normal, so don't call or text until then. Just joking!
In other news, I bought a 10 cleanse from Advocare and I think I'm going to start this on Monday. I haven't decided on whether or not to do this. Before you get all preachy on me, this is what the cleanse entails:
- Drink a fiber drink in the morning (they provide this)
- Eat clean
-try to stay away from starchy carbs (this will be the hardest for me)
- don't drink alcohol or soda or coffee (i'm not 100% on the coffee part, but i'm pretty sure you can't have coffee)
- Eat 5-6 small meals a day.
That is about it. I have been watching my carb intake.  I am trying the whole low carb day and high carb day, so I'm not sure if this is the right time to try this.  I'm still up in the air about it. I will still get to work out.  This isn't one of those cleanses where all I drink is lemon juice or something crazy like that.  I eat good clean food all day long and still have plenty of energy to work out.  So why should I do this?? Well this will get rid of most of the toxins in your body and it should help with the cravings of processed food (aka bad carbs). I thought this might help me in the long run. Who knows. Like I said, it is something I am thinking about doing it.  If I do it, you will get to hear about it! I will be your guinea pig! LOL No seriously, a lot of people do this and have GREAT results, if you can stick to the eating clean part and staying away from all the other junk.
Well I hope you all have a good week. Mine will be better once the Red Demon leaves!! I seriously can't wait to get back to normal, I hate knowing I'm like a grenade just waiting to explode!

Have a good week folks!

Friday, February 21, 2014


Oh boy what a week. I mean yeah I had a REALLY good day, one day this week and the rest have been bleh. Not bad, but not good either.  That is okay though. I made it to the gym 3 days this week and I was going to go this morning, but I saw 12:01 a.m. hit my phone and I knew I wouldn't get up in 4 1/2 hours, it just wouldn't happen. So I didn't go to the gym this morning, but I do have 2 games of volleyball tonight. And my plan is to get up around 7:00 tomorrow and go for a 6 mile run. yeah you read that, 6 miles. These long runs are getting ridiculous and a little scary, but also exciting.

As for my eating, well that has been about as bleh as my week has been. I do GREAT in the morning and for my morning snack, but then lunch comes and I want to eat ALL.THE.CARBS. It doesn't matter if I am under my calorie count and I work out, if I eat high carb meals for lunch and dinner, well...... I gain weight. womp womp.  Who's fault is that?? Well I say it is Gods fault. No?!?!? okay, maybe my parents, Buddha, my boss, my child, oh oh oh I know...... Papa smorf!! Okay enough of the nonsense, I know it is my fault. And maybe a little God's, I mean he could have given me a better metabolism, am I right??

So this morning I got all sorts of depressed realizing that I have a CARB problem. Hi, My name is Jessica and I'm a Carboholic. My rock bottom was eating FOUR pieces of bread for lunch.

 I want to have my cake and eat it too, LITERALLY! So I started to think about what I need to do.  One thing I need is a better relationship with carbs and no I don't mean physically. What I mean is that I need to be able to think of them like any other type of food, I need to be able to say no and not feel like my high school boyfriend just dumped me. So today I was going to go completely off carbs and not eat a single one. Well that last until lunch time. And then I asked a friend to go with me to lunch and I had a delicious hamburger with a bun and fries. I was having a bad morning and I honestly didn't give a rat's butt what I ate. And then I had ice cream afterwards. And now I feel like pooh on a stick. I just feel awful, mentally and physically.  I kind of a feel like a failure. So back to the drawing board.

So I got to thinking about carbs and what I thought the solution is, AGAIN.  And I obvisiously can't just get rid of them. I have heard of people doing "carb cycling" and so I googled it and at first I thought well crap, this isn't for me.  This is for muscle builders.  But then I kept reading and found out that this type of "diet" is used to DESTROY fat and build muscle. Well isn't that what I want to do?? Isn't that the point of working out and eating healthy?? I don't want fat on my body and muscle is awesome! So I kept reading other articles and yes some trainers are completely on board with their non-muscle builder clients carb cycling, in fact some of them have all their clients do this. So why not me?? Or better question might be, what the heck is carb cycling (what you haven't googled it yet??) It is alternating High Carb days with Low Carb days and some trainers even go as far as NO carb days.  I don't know that I can do No carb days, oh well heck, we know I can't, I couldn't go 12 hours today without carbs. So Low carb it is. Here is a good illustration for you

So come Monday this is what I am going to start. This might be a fad diet or this might be a life style change, who knows, but all I know is that something has to change. I like this idea because I don't have to completely get rid of carbs all together and there isn't a ridiculous long waitt before I can start "introducing" carbs back into my diet. This seems like a good compromise for ME!

Also I want to state that not all people need to give up (cut down on) carbs.  I have a friend who strictly counts her calorie intake and works out, that is it. She lost her 20 pounds and has kept it off for YEARS. She does indulge from time to time, but for the most part she doesn't NEED to indulge. She is basically awesome. Then there is my husband and I think that kid NEEDS carbs, He has a high metabolism and I think carbs get him through the day. He doesn't need to lose weight. But for me, I have seen over and over again that if I LIMIT my carb intake I get the best results, but my problem is that I can't seem to stay away from them FOREVER and when I start to slowing eat them again I go a little Carb Crazy! So I'm hoping with something like this, I can have my cake and eat it too. Okay that isn't possible, but I'm hoping this is a little more reasonable for ME.

Well that is all I got for you on this FABULOUS Friday. I hope you all have a great weekend and wish me luck on my 6 miles tomorrow.


I think the last one sums it up :)
Have a good one folks.  And if you don't like ecards, well then you can..... (I want to say "SUCK IT!!")politely comment on my facebook page about it.

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

My stellar day!

I hope your day is going as well as mine has. Why is my day so awesome? Well let me break it down for you. 

1. I got my butt up to make it to the gym for my 4 mile run 

2. I didn't have to bundle up like an Eskimo before I got to the gym. A jacket was all I needed. Score! 
3. I ran on that stinking treadmill and it didn't kill me. Double score. 

4.  I remembered to drink my spark on the way to the gym so I had awesome energy at the gym. 
5. Got home at a decent time and got everyone ready for the day (I mostly have to wake Jed up, he doesn't require too much assistance) 
6. Jed and I switched cars today and in the console I found my old iPod, plugged that sucker and it played all the right songs. Some olds ones that I had forgotten about, this really got me pumped  for the day!! So yeah I was that girl wailing in her car like no one could see me. I didn't care! 
7. Work has been going pretty smoothly. 
8.  It was nice enough for us to go to the park after work 
Isn't he adorable??? 

9. Then I had a dinner date with this handsome boy! 

And when I asked him if he wanted fries or apples he said apples! I might be doing something right. He was actually pretty well mannered too and he ate the ham in his sandwich and not just the bun. The kid loves bread! He might take after his momma a little. :) 

All in all it was a pretty perfect day. I can't complain so I won't. I hope tomorrow goes as smoothly and the next day and day after that. If this is how my life went ever day, I would have nothing to ever complain about. 

Also, I ran 5 miles this weekend and I am still here to tell the story! It was a great JOG! It was slow but I got the job done! And after that run, I realized that I CAN freaking train for this half marathon and I CAN run 13.1 miles. It may not be pretty but I will get there. 

Got to go my fading lunch hour is coming to an end :( but I am hoping to have another post this week. 

****also as a side not I didn't complete my 4 miles. I got to about 3.6 and I called it quits. Even though the treadmill didn't kill me, we are still NOT friends. It was all I could to run those 3.6 miles and not go insane. I just don't like the treadmill. I probably never will. 

***** this post was half written over lunch and then continued before I went to bed. For some reason it wouldn't load at lunch time. I guess it knew I had a terrific half of a day left to blog about :) 

Monday, February 10, 2014

The attack of the killer cold

I am just going to come out and say "I. HATE. COLDS." I am basically a wimp when it comes to colds. Yes, I am still working.  But that is pretty much all I am going to get done today. But this cold got me to thinking, R had this cold last week and he was a champ. Yes he had a running nose, sneezes, cough, etc. But he didn't sit around the house whining about his cold (although it could have explained why he was whiney in general last week.) No, he was up running around like a wild Hyena.  I mean seriously, there isn't much that slows that boy down. So why is it hitting me so hard??

So then I started to think about when I was a child and I am pretty sure I was the same way.  Colds just didn't effect me like they do now. I'm not sure what the answer is, but I have decided that I need to have that child like attitude/energy what ever you want to call it and get over this stupid cold.

And as always, I turn to Carbs when I'm feeling icky. I had pizza this weekend and chips and bread.  I loved it ALL. And today I feel pretty darn horrible and had to come to work, I know I know, so sad. But I wasn't hungry for breakfast so I didn't eat anything, so then for lunch I decided to go grab a sandwich.  But I didn't stop there, I grab a bag of chips and a soda(diet). After I had my delicious sandwich, I dug into my chips. Let me mention that I am working while I was eating this and I had to keep wiping my hands off after each handful of chips because they were greasy. Then as I'm stuff my face of chips I realize that if someone saw me at this moment, it wouldn't be my prettiest moment. And then I thought if I really was enjoying them and the answer was No.  It was just something to eat. So why am I still eating them?? I still had no answer. So I closed up the bag and put the bag away. So from here on out, I'm not allowing my COLD to dictate what I'm eating. I am also hitting the gym tomorrow morning.  I will go to bed early tonight and then get up early tomorrow.  My goal is to get a total of 8 hours of sleep.

So the next time I get ready to eat something I KNOW I shouldn't be, I am going to ask myself a few questions:

Are you enjoying this?
Is this worth the guilt you will feel later?
Will this make you feel BETTER (Emotionally and physically)?
Why are you eating this??
Where did this come from??

I really like the last 2 questions.  Why? and Where? I like the question "Why" because it helps me figure out what is causing me to grab this particular item.  Most of the time it is convenient, I am WAY to hungry (I didn't snack like I should have), and I'm tired (which means, I'm too tired to think of a healthier solution).  So next time I know a similar situation is going to arise, I can make sure I have a healthier snack near by or bring a shake with me. SOMETHING ANYTHING, IS BETTER THAN EATING POTATOE CHIPS!!

And the "where" questions. I like this one because it get me thinking.  Where did this REALLY come from?? And if the answer is, I don't know.  Then I probably shouldn't be eating it. This is to help me look at the big picture.  I also think if I can get rid of all of this junk, then I won't get sick like I am now. So there is that too.

And this wouldn't be a post by me if there wasn't some random crap in it.

- I have to run a half marathon in less than 3 months and I'm really behind on my training. That is one of the BIG reasons for going to the gym tomorrow.

-I bought a bunch of stuff to try juicing (and borrowed a juicer from a friend) and I have not tried.  Yep, I am being a chicken and LAZY.

- I joined a diet bet and I have to weigh less than 169.9 by 2/28/2014 to get my $20.00 back. YIKES, I need to get serious.

-My new favorite show is "New Girl" and that could be a bad thing for me. I would love to just sit on the couch and watch that all day long. Instead I should be doing house work or working out. Plus at night I like to watch it on my ipad which means I Don't go to bed like I should.

- I have mentioned that I baked muffins.  I don't like to bake, but I freaking baked for my child. They are pretty darn good too. I have done this TWICE now and for 2 weeks my child has NOT had a store bought muffin. I call that a win!

Adios people, I hope you are having a good week. Mine will get significantly better once Wednesday gets here.  The weather is suppose to be in 40's.  FREAKING HALLELUJAH!! I might get to run outside this weekend! :)