So on Monday, I was a complete mess. Last week we decided that Sahara (my dog) had dealt with enough pain and discomfort. So we called the vet and the only time he could come out to the house was on Monday afternoon. Which worked out great, but the idea of what was going to happen hung over our head ALL weekend. But it also gave us the whole weekend to spend time with her and spoil her.
Her asking for more spoiling on Monday. Don't mind the messing house, I didn't care about any of that on that day.
Come monday, I did my best to focus on the things I could control. I focused on work and I worked until noon that day and then Jed and I both came home. The vet made it out to the house around 3:30 that day, so until then Jed and I did our best to spoil her and snuggle with her as much as possible. The vet came out and did his thing (which by the way he was super nice and understanding. At one moment I thought he was going to start tearing up). This was seriously one of the hardest things I have ever done. I know some of you are like "It is just a dog, get over it." But Sahara wasn't just a dog, like I said before she was my best friend, child, sister, confidant, my protector, etc. ALL ROLLED INTO ONE!!! I couldn't have asked for a better friend. She was ALWAYS there for me. After our miscarriages it was Sahara and Jed that was there to cuddle with me when I got really sad. It was Sahara that I could really let myself cry and sob until there were no more tears left. Or when I was sick, she would always be there to cuddle with me to make me feel better. She always knew when to give me a little nudge as if to say "hey, it will be alright, it always is." When R had colic as a new born, Sahara sat with me during the hard times and would come nudge me at times to say "hey mom, calm down, he will eventually stop crying." Or when I needed to walk out of R's room to take break, Sahara would go into his room and sit by his crib.
As much, as I think she was annoyed that we had a baby (which took attention away from her) she LOVED him, even before he was born.
Sahara also saved me one night or saved me from doing something that would haunt me forever. Jed was out of town for work and I was home alone for a few days. One night, I woke up at 4:00 in the morning to Sahara growling. As I tried to focus my eyes in the dark, I saw Sahara leap up and stick her head into the blinds and start barking and growling. I thought she was going to jump through the window. At the same time, I saw 2 lights flashing through my window. Jed kept a gun by our bed at the time (this was before R was born) and I grabbed it. It was at that moment I realized that if someone came through that window that I would have to make a decision. Deep down, I know what I would have done. But I will never truly know because Sahara scared those 2 people away. After they left, Sahara was determined to go outside and make sure they were really gone. I didn't want to let her outside but I could tell that NO ONE would be able to relax until she made her rounds. I let her out and she was outside for about 5 minutes and then came back. She immediately went back to bed, I couldn't sleep at all after that. But from then on, I knew that Sahara would always do what ever she could to protect me. She is one of those dogs that would attack a bear if any one in our family found ourselves being attacked by a bear. She was just that protective of us.
Yeah I liked to put hats on her. LOL Doesn't she looked thrilled. But she always humored me.
Yep, she even got to come with us at family photo time.
One of my favorite pics.
This one was taken before my half marathon. She was the only one awake before I left. We had a special moment!! :)
She was really good at photo bombing pictures too. LOL
My friend Kayla came over on mother's day to take these family photos. I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR THEM! Thank you Kayla, I appreciate it more than you know.
So there you have it. My post dedicated to Sahara - the best dog I have ever known. I am going to end this post before I start crying because once I start I can't stop. I hope you all have a good weekend. I will have a more positive post next week, or at least I hope I do.