This is how I feel when I plan too much shit!! This is not a pic of me btw.
I mean wouldn't you want to spend more time with that child??
I realize that this is ALL normal. And that this isn't how it is always going to be. I know it is okay for me to be gone this weekend and Jed doesn't seem to mind at all. He has been gone on the weekends while R and I stay home, but it is odd for me to be away from both of them. I guess I always thought if I wasn't with R then I should be with Jed. I have told people this before, but I am the most comfortable when Jed is around. Don't ask me why, Jed drives me bat shit crazy sometimes, but there is something there that I find comfort in. As long as I have him by my side then I can get through anything. So it makes me a little sad that he won't be at the Dash to support me, but I also realize that I need to stand on my own 2 feet. I have been with Jed since HIGH SCHOOL, that is a FREAKING long time. And I wouldn't change that for the world, but I also rely on him so much. I need to do somethings on my own. This weekend is one of those things. I also need to voice my opinion about hobbies that I like. Since high school I tagged along with Jed and his friends and let me tell you, we have some AWESOME memories, but with that said I didn't always participate in the things I WANTED to do because I knew that Jed would either be bored or wouldn't participate in them. I always thought I did that because I was being a good girlfriend or wife, but now I realize I was doing that because I was scared. What if what I WANTED was boring or too hard or not possible. Did that mean I was boring or too weak? Sorry I got a little too deep. But do you see where I am going with this? Even though being away from R and Jed will be hard this weekend, I know this is something I NEED to do. I NEED to stand on my own 2 feet!! Where better to do this than a freaking Warrior Dash, LOL.
I like this one because we are being goofy, which is typically how we normally are unless I am rolling my eyes at him and he is irritated at me!! LOL
These are some of my favorite pics taken of Jed and I. Of course these were ALL taken before we had R. We might need to take some more of just the 2 of us!!