I got real!!

So last night I went to the gym and had a pretty good workout but I was hit with reality, not only have I gained weight but I lost a lot of my muscle!! This is pretty sad. Why, you ask. Well because it means I am BIGGER than I use to be. I knew I was, but I was in denial about how bad it was really was. I knew that most of my clothes were getting too tight and uncomfortable but I kept telling myself "just lose 5 pounds and they will feel better."  People I am here to say that just losing 5 pounds isn't going to make them feel better. I need to lose the weight but also tone things up AGAIN! 

As I was lifting my weights I really saw how my body has transform. I saw my trouble areas again. This could have been really depressing but to be honest it wasn't. It just opened my eyes to reality. It got real!! And I was HAPPY that I got the wake up call when I did. So what did my workout consist of last night. 

I made this work out back in June and let me tell you there is a huge difference between then and now. We did everything except for the Abs and Eliptical at the end, we ran out of time. Oh and I didn't use the bands. The band make it harder for you to focus on your form which makes then harder to do. Well they were plenty hard to do without the bands. But I will be adding them back in one day!! 

I'd say I still got a good work out though 

And my eating is still on track. In fact I saw this on my fitness pal app 

The day I see 155 is the day I am throwing a huge party and according to this that will be in about 5 weeks ;) 

But last night I was dragging and I had this conversation with my friend about going to the gym. 

 

I am SO GLAD my friend didn't back out because I would have stayed home and done NOTHING! Once I had it in my mind that I was going to go, I got excited. Excited, you say??? Yeah because I knew we would be lifting weights. My love for that has not changed, I just need to make time for it. But I do love lifting weights!!! So thank you KAYLA!! I got to the gym even though I was extremely tired and did a work out I could be proud of!! 

On that note, do any of you have a hard time falling asleep? If so, what do you take? I have been having this problem and tylonal PM is not working. I need my sleep people, just ask my husband, I have been a grouch lately!! 

So that is all I got for now. I am really going to try hard to stay on point this weekend. I need to run/walk 4 miles this weekend and I would like to lift too! I think the big key is to keep logging my food! That really does seem to be helping me! 

Have a good weekend, we should have decent weather this weekend and then it gets cold again, so go do something outside!! :)