Well, It is Wednesday and weigh in time!

It is Wednesday and I have to say I was dreading this weigh in AGAIN! Will I ever look forward to Wednesdays? I lost 1/2 a pound everyone.  I was at 176.9 last week and I'm at 176.4.  Do I feel defeated?  Yes and No. Remember in my last post how I explained I had a horrible weekend, well how can I expect a good weigh in when I eat like horse over the weekend?  Had I ate better and excercised a little more, I think I would have met my goal which is a little disappointing. But on the bright side I added Cardio to my work out on Monday and Tuesday and each day I ran a MILE! Before I had R this would not have been an accomplishment.  I could ALWAYS run a mile no matter how out of shape I was, I might have struggled, but I could get it done. After R that changed.  I tried running last year and I got to a quarter of a mile and had to stop, I felt so horrible. I kept at it for a while (probably only 2 weeks) and the furthest I got was 3/4 a mile.  I was so frustrated that I quit (NOT RECOMENDED). So when I got on the treadmill Monday I was trying to tell myself that running a mile may not be achievable yet, but it would be if I kept at it.  And it was a struggle, but I ran a mile without walking. YIPEE!!! People I can't tell you how freaking proud of myself I was.  I felt like the old me!! That night I still did my P90X and that was a struggle, but I got it done. On Tuesday I ran again with the same result, but this time it wasn't a big struggle and I probably could have ran more, but I needed to pick up R so I called it quits at a mile. What is my next step? Pick out a 5K date!!! I know if I get myself enrolled in a 5K then I will push myself harder!

Also I want to add that I know that I'm heading in the right direction because .................................. the dress pants I'm wearing today are TOO BIG!!!!!!!!! Another YIPEE for me! On the sad side, they don't have belt loops so I basically need to say adios to them and buy another pair.  Some may say that isnt' a bad thing, but I LOVE these pants. I hope I can find another pair to replace them :)

Some people may want to know what my benefits have been since starting all of this.  Well they are:

1.) I have a pair of pants that are too big!!
2.) I can run a mile again!
3.) I have more energy
4.) My body is getting firmer
5.) I have more confidence in myself
6.) This may go along with #5, but I can say I am proud of myself for achieving some of my small goals.
7.) Exercising is becoming more enjoyable than work!!!!!


I think those benefits are freaking AWESOME. Some of you may already have those things, but for me I can honestly say this is the best I have felt since having my child. I feel like I'm getting back to Jessica and not just a mom or a wife. It is time consuming, but I'm enjoying it. Before R was born, I use to watch A LOT of TV and my husband would say, "get a hobby." And I would get mad because I had hobbies, but they involved doing things with other people, like softball and volleyball.  Hard to play those sports on your own.  But this I can do solo if I need to. I do want to add that my husband does join me in the majority of my P90X workouts, I think he has only missed one.  He is getting stronger and his pants are getting bigger too :) But he did say that his # on the scale is going up.  I know this is because we are adding muscle and muscle weighs more than fat.  I hoping at some point this muscle with start eating our fat and the scales will start to reflex our efforts. 

So what did I learn this week:
1.) I can run a mile!! (this is the last time I will say that)
2.) Don't go crazy over the weekends, it is hard to work that off!
3.) Don't go crazy looking at the number on the scale
4.) Eating healthy takes a little more time/effort at first, but once you start it gets easier as you go.
5.) Ground Turkey is good.
6.) Drinking beer for 3 nights in a row is BAD (I only had a few each night, but they were not necessary!)

Over all my week had it's ups and downs.  I think it will be like that for a while.  PLEASE DON'T EXPECT ME TO BE PERFECT!! Just because I have a blog doesn't mean that I am perfect. You guys are along for the journey and on this journey there are going to be highs and lows. I will do my BEST to be honest with you and myself! Over the years I have discovered that I like to be PERFECT and I am so far from being perfect.  This use to depress me, but recently I have learned that I can't be perfect, it isn't possible. So why strive for something that isn't possible?  Especially if it only makes me sad and feel bad about myself.  A goal should make you feel good and you should feel good about achieving them. Striving to be perfect isn't a specific goal. I know that I need to be specific about my goals. Which are to lose 30 lbs and to run a 5K. I know I'm on way to achieving both of these goals. I may not be dropping the pounds like I would like to, but I'm building the tools to get there.  The more muscle I have the more pounds I will lose down the road. And I'm a few miles shorts of the 5K, but I know over the next a month or two I will be there! These goals I feel good about!!

Well once again this got pretty lengthy.  I apologize for that. How did you guys do this week?? Did you discover anything new or learn anything new? What are your goals?? It doesn't have to be weight related, I am just curious.  It is February and I know some of you had New Years resolutions, so are you still working towards those? 

With Wednesday being here that means we are about half way through our work week!! YAY!! I hope the rest of the week goes smoothly for you! Take care and if you have any suggestions please feel free to let me know or if you have any questions please don't hesitate to ask me.