When it rains it pours

So I was MIA last week, but I have several good reasons why.

1. I was sick from Monday thru Thursday. And when I say sick, I means SICK. I had the worst stomach ache and I had ZERO energy! It completely wiped me out. On Wednesday I went to the doctor and they weren't sure what is was, but all my test came back negative. And yes I did take a pregnancy test and it was negative too.

2. Thursday marked the one year anniversary since my cousin passed away. It has been my mind A LOT lately and I honestly wanted to do a dedication post to her, but with being so sick I honestly didn't have the physical energy or the mental energy to make it the best post I could give her.

3. This is a big one. On Thursday I made myself go to work even though I didn't feel well and was sad because of Abby. I knew I needed to go to work, I wanted to go to work because I couldn't stand to be in the house any longer! So I go to work and my head starts pounding and I keep telling myself that I need to make it to noon and then I can go lay down. Shortly after I give myself this pep talk for the hundredth time my boss pulls me into the conference room. I figured it was to update me on what I had missed over the few days, but instead he looks at me with tears in his eyes and says that my position has been terminated. He is really nice about it and tells me that it wasn't anything I did wrong, but that there needed to be changes in the company and these changes included getting rid of my position and that this would take place immediately.

So I gathered my things and head home. I felt like I had been dumped by a boyfriend (that I liked, but wasn't in love with) and his line was "it isn't you, it is me." I cried all the way home and was in shock. I had never been let go before. I wasn't exactly happy with my job, but it was a job. What I did like was my co-worker and my boss. So I wasn't exactly sad to be leaving my job, what I was sad about was that I felt like I had been fired and that now I didn't know what would happen. I am stil a little lost.

So needless to say Thursday was a crappy day. But I went home that day and I started to look for jobs. I feel like this is God's way of saying, "Jesssica you weren't happy and you can do better, but you didn't see that so I now I am forcing you to go look for a new job that better fits you and your abilities." Crazy what a week can do for your life.

One thing I will tell you is that filing unemployment is NO fun. There is a bunch of crap to fill out and it can be a little confusing and then when you call them you will be on hold for about 30 minutes before you even reach anyone. Ugh. It is very frustrating. But hey what do I have to do all day.

The hardest part of all of this is that I don't know what lies ahead of me. Will I figure out a way to be a stay at home mom? Will I find greener grass (better job)? Will my next job be worse? Ugh let's hope not. There are a lot of questions and I don't have the answer to them. My future feels up in the air. But here is the thing. I am not at home moping around in my robe. I have a meeting\interview this afternoon and I have other applications submitted for other positions. I won't let this get me down! I can't, I have a family to support and a 2 year old(almost 3) looking up to me. I know God has a plan for me, I just don't know what it is yet.

Also this is the first time I blogged on my iPad to please excuse any misspelled words or grammar issues because this is harder than I thought it would be. My lap top is not letting me use all my letters or numbers and it is really pissing me off, so the iPad is my blogging machine now. Once again not the end of the world.

Well I hope you all have a good week. PLEASE DON'T FEEL SORRY FOR ME! That isn't the reason I wrote this post, I just want to update you on my life and why I was MIA last week. I told you I had a good reason to be gone! Oh and by the way I will be hitting the gym again this afternoon. I haven't forgotten why I started this blog and what my goals are. I will keep you updated on how that goes, I am guessing I will be sore tomorrow since I didn't make it to the gym at all last week.

Oh and also I like my title because ever sine Thursday it feels like all have gotten around here is rain. It is raining right now. Last year it was soooooo dry and this year is completely different. I believe we are even in a flood watch here. So yeah I think the title is fitting!

Take care and I will be back on Wednesday.

 

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Friday and a baby shower.

This is going to be a quick post. Today I am hosting a baby shower for my dear friend Kayla and her husband Matt. I have 2 GREAT friends co-hosting with me and to be honest I couldn't ask for a better set of friends helping me.

This is going to be more of an informative blog for ME. What do you guys want to hear from me? Do you have any questions for me? Would you rather me blog strictly about fitness or do you enjoy it when I go off in the other direction? Would you like to know more personal stuff?

Here is some basic things about me:

• I was born Nov. 30th 1981.
• I have a younger brother and a sister
• I grew up in Great Bend, KS
• I met my husband in High School. We actually met in middle school, but we didn't start to date until the end of our sophomore year.
• I played sports growing up. My favorite was basketball. The basketball court will ALWAYS hold a special place in my heart. 
• I was and always will be a daddy's girl. Growing up, I enjoyed being active in the things he did. So I played football as a young child because the kids on the block would ask him to come out and play and he would say "I will come out and play, but only if Jessica can be on my team." Yeah I felt pretty special. 

My dad and my kiddo. Pictures like this warm my heart! 

• I live out in the country. And no we don't have a ranch, but we call our house, the Davis Ranch.  Not sure where that came from, but that is what we call home! 
• We had 6 guinea hens (we bought them back in June) and we are down to ONE. Country living can be frustrating! 
• We have had a total of 6 kittens/cats and we are down to just ONE. Once again Country living can be frustrating!
• We have a dog named Sahara and she was my first baby. She has been with us through all the good and bad times. She got her name because she is as white as sand and Jed didn't like the name Sandy. So one day I said, Why not Sahara like the desert. And it has been Sahara ever since. She has gone to the sand dunes with us many times so I think she deserves that name! :) She is a family member and our lives wouldn't be the same without her. 

• We LOVE to go to the sand dunes down in Oklahoma. We have also been to Utah and California for some pretty awesome ATV vacations. My first ATV was a 3 wheeler. And that 3-wheeler will always have a spot in my heart too. We still have it and the last trip, I made sure I rode that 3-wheeler and I have to say it was one of the best rides I had the WHOLE time I was down there. (yeah I have a little redneck in me!! And to be honest, I love that about myself!!)

The one on the right is mine! It looks like a 3-wheeler rodeo!! HAHAHA

• Oh and in case you didn't know. I have a 2 year old!! Actually he will turn 3 in September and that is my world. I dropped him off at daycare today and found myself all sorts of sad because I wanted to stay home with him and just play. He can be a pain in the butt, but is MY pain in the butt and I love him. I wouldn't change him for the world. 

Well that is all I have for you today. I hope you had fun learning a little bit more about me. Like I said before, give me some feedback on what you like to read or what you would like to know about me. I LOVE getting comments down below. If you don't see a reply on this blog it is because I e-mail those replies back to that person. That way I can get a little more length if I want to :) 

I hope y'all have a good weekend. Mine is going to start off pretty awesome. I can't believe my friend is already 34 weeks pregnant(she started a blog too, go over and say hi, HERE). It brings back so many great memories for me. Okay I need to stop or I am going to get all mushy!! Have a great weekend folks! 

Finish the sentence link up

I am going to do the link up today with Holly and Jake. No, it isn't really fitness related, but heck, but I am sure you gals/ guys (who am I kidding no guys read this) could use a break from reading about how I go to gym and eat food. 

If I had one extra hour in the day, ummmmm I would sleep or clean house or weed my garden. Crap, I have a lot of stuff I need to do so scratch the sleeping. :(

I wish my name was Jennifer so people would call me by the right name.  Yeah, when ever I meet someone new, the next time I talk to them they call me Jennifer. I guess I look like a Jennifer.

I think anything chevron is...cute, I don't wear it, but there are several things with Chevron on it that I would love in my house. Like a bright and pretty chevron rug would be so AMAZING! I would probably decorate the whole room around that rug. 

My last nightmare...involved me roaming around without my glasses or contacts.  See I have REALLY bad eyes and if you take away my glasses/contacts I can't see who I am talking to, everyone turns into a BIG BLOB. So it is my biggest fear to lose my contacts and glasses. If you see me walking around like a zombie then you know my worst nightmare come true, eeeeekkkkk. 

Sometimes... I wish I had a magic genie. Okay that is all the time that I wish I had a magic genie. 

My last meal on earth would be tacos from Ensenada Mexico. YUMMMMM. 

I would much rather be in a small town in Kansas than in any big city in California/New York/basically any big city.

Mayonnaise makes a sandwich, without it, you might as well call it quits. I don't want a stupid sandwich without the mayo on it. You can feed that crap to the dogs if it doesn't have mayo and I will probably throw a fit if you give me a sandwich without mayo on it.But lets get real, NO ONE is going to make me a sandwich, I am the sandwich artist in my household. I know, can you feel my pain??  

10 years ago, I can't freaking remember 10 years ago.  I was young and carefree. I didn't care about much other than myself, my fiance (soon to be husband), and what ever alcoholic beverage I had in my hand. Those were the days. 

 
Selfishly I want to go on a big trip with just girls, like go to Mexico or something cheap but fun and NOT bring my family. Yeah Yeah, that probably won't happen. 

My favorite show on TV right now, NOTHING.  I am not into anything right now, I think TV sucks right now. I'm not a fan of big brother (never have) or the Bachelorette or anything like that. So TV pretty much sucks right now. Talk to me again when The Walking Dead starts back up.  

And, George Zimmerman, (insert big SIGH) I believe got off too easily. He shot someone and that person is dead. He is not part of the police department I don't believe that he had the right to take someone else's life because he BELIEVED that person was guilty of a crime. That is all I have to say about that.  Now lets discuss whether or not I should get an IPhone 5 or wait around and see if they are going to come out with an IPhone 6 in the near future.  Any suggestions?!?!?! Yeah I don't like talking about serious stuff when I could be talking about a potential new phone!! LOL 

Have a GREAT THURSDAY. But seriously, what phone do you think I should get?!?!? 

PS, if you are new to this blog.  Please don't take EVERYTHING I say on here seriously.  I don't like to be THAT serious. 

The early bird gets the worm!

So if you follow me on Facebook you know that my goal today was to get my butt up and go to a Cardio kick boxing class at my gym.  My good friend Peggy teaches the class.  I have gone to her class before (like before R was born) and it is a GREAT work out. But she just recently started to teach at my gym (her gym too). I want to support her so I thought I should get my butt up and go to her class. So I set my alarm.

do you like my alarm labels?? LOL

and I also had 2 people text me bright and early.So I really had no possible way of sleeping through the class. And yet, I STILL DID!!! ARGGGGGG!!!!!!!! Seriously, how did I do that?? Well here is what I THINK happened.  I always put the volume on my phone at 4 or 5 and that usually works.  But sometimes in the morning, it isn't loud enough to REALLY wake me up and hit the snooze button without realizing it.  I honestly think I hit the snooze button at least 3 times this morning.  And at 4 or 5 volume setting I totally didn't hear the text messages either. So needless to say I missed the class! UGH! This really makes me mad. But what can I do about it now?? So my goal is to get there next week and use a much louder volume setting on my phone.

I LOVE the idea of going to the gym in the morning, but so far I have only done it twice in my WHOLE life. I like the idea of getting it done first thing in the morning and then having the rest of the day to do what ever I need to do.  I would love to get off at 4:00 and run my errands or go pick up R from daycare early. Or if I was supper crazy, I could do 2 work outs a day on certain days of the week. Okay, that might be a little CRAZY! I also wish I could be one of those people who get up early on the weekends and get their workouts done so they don't skip out on the weekends. But I LOVE my sleep and it is hard to wake my butt up, just ask my mom.  She use to personally wake me up for school every morning and then when I went to College she use to call me to wake me up (well just that first week). But still, I am not a morning person. For those that are, how do you get up in the morning and how do you make yourself a morning person??

So what do I do now? Well, I am going to go to the gym at 4:00 again today and either go to another similar kick boxing class or just do a regular workout. I should go to the kick boxing class just because it is out of my comfort zone. The instructor is intense and intimidates me, but that is a good thing, right??? LOL

ANY ADVICE ON HOW TO GET UP IN THE MORNING IS APPRECIATED!!!

True story. 

Is anyone willing to do this for me next Wednesday?? 

Have a good Wednesday. We are almost to Friday folks!!!! YAY!!!!

Your worst critic

I have been struggling lately and it is ALL mental. I haven't been eating as well as I would like and I haven't been pushing it at the gym as hard as I should. And for those reasons I have been really hard on myself. I have gained about 2 pounds (not a big deal, actually I have been fluctuating from 168-170), but obviously I would like to see it go down. And it isn't really even the number that is bugging me, it is that I am letting myself down. I have some seriously big goals that I would like to achieve and I AM not going to achieve them by sitting on my ass eating bon bons. Okay, I have never had a bon bon, I don't even know what they are, but you know what I mean. I can't sit around expecting myself to improve when I am doing nothing to help myself improve.

With that said, I have also had a couple of other things on my mind. There is one thing in particular that has been on my mind and I'm just going to say it, it has almost been a year since my cousin Abby died. I try my hardest to NOT get emotional about it or cry about it, but Gosh Darn it, it is getting to me. Right now, I have tears in my eyes and I'm trying really hard to push them back. Some of those horrible feelings that I felt shortly after she passed is rearing its ugly head again. I keep wondering, Why isn't she here?  She was so freaking sweet and AWESOME, seriously God why couldn't she kept doing her work here? I know the answer to this, God needed her else where, but What about us?? We need her too.

My cousin Abby LOVED horses. Our neighbors own horses (for those who don't know this, we live in the country) and they normally ALL stick together. Well lately there has been this one horse that hangs out by itself and I can see it from my kitchen window when I am doing the dishes or cleaning up. I get very choked up when I see this horse because it reminds me of ABBY EVERY TIME I SEE IT!!  I miss her terribly and that damn horse isn't helping things. I mean it is the same horse every time, it isn't one of the others and it seems so sad just sitting there by itself. I really just want to go out there and pet him/her and be near it, but that can't happen. UGH, I really hate that horse.

Also my son is one of the most awesome people I know, but he can also be a handful, I mean what toddler isn't. But when he gets into one of his moods or throws his temper tantrums I feel like I have failed him. Like there is a way I can better help him and help him express his anger/sadness/frustrations, but in the end I have to just let him work it out. This is hard for me. And I'm struggling with it.

There have also been a couple of other things on my mind that I don't want to dive into. They are REALLY personally and I am not ready to share that info on the blog. I am sure at some point down the road I will share it.

So things aren't always so bright and wonderful. Things get me down and I have let these get me so down that I have gone back to old habits which means eating stuff that isn't so great. So what am going to do about all of this. Well to be honest there aren't a lot of answers. I am going to let myself be sad for Abby (or myself because I miss her, she is probably have a ball up there!!) and I am going to work on being as patient as I can for R. For the other personal things, there is one thing I can do and I just need to DO IT.  I am also going to let God handle some of this. I will do what I can, but the rest I am giving to him. I can't control EVERYTHING and I NEED to let him handle some of this. I think I also need to get my running shoes on and just freaking run. I did NOT run this weekend and I think that is partially why I feel out of sync. We had visitors on Saturday and then Sunday we had rain and a CRAP ton of traffic down our dirt roads so it was NOT safe to run.  Yes I could have ran at the gym, but to be honest it would have NOT helped me clear my mind. Running on a treadmill is work to me, not lethargic. I hoping soon I can lace up those shoes and go for a GOOD run, I NEED it.

I hate to be such a Debbie Downer today, but this is how I am feeling today. I hate SUGAR coating things. I basically just wanted you to know that not everything is perfect in my world. Maybe I am writing this to remind myself to let go of the things I can't control. Writing this post has actually helped me more than I thought it would. Sometimes just talking about stuff makes me feel better. What do you do to relieve stress or clear your mind??

I am going to leave you with some of the cutest pictures.

He is way too cool for a being 2!!!! 

He is growing up too fast! 

These pictures make me smile and I hope they make you smile too!! Have a good week! 

It is FRIDAY Whoop Whoop!

Gosh, I love how Fridays feel. I mean they seriously feel like a holiday! Don't you think???

Any ways, I went to the gym yesterday evening and I had to drag myself there. I TOTALLY DID NOT WANT TO BE THERE! In my heart, I really wanted to be getting my hair done, or nails, or shopping, or anything FUN!  So I make myself get dressed and hit the elliptical (giving my shins a break and didn't run yesterday) and I have to say by the end of my 20 minutes I didn't want to GET OFF! I wanted to just keep going, but I knew that I needed to get my weight lifting on. So then I said good bye to my elliptical and put my jams on and headed to lift weights. After my whole work out, I looked back and wondered why I didn't want to be there. I mean I felt way better after my work out than I did before. Why do we dread going to the gym??

As I was walking out the gym I started to realize that most days I really look forward to coming to that place. It is starting to feel like my second home. I see a lot of the same people every time and normally I run into a friend while I am there so I get a little social time too. But I know that some people get a little intimidated at the gym and that is okay. But I wanted to go through some of my favorite machines/work outs that I have been doing lately. This way if you go to the gym then maybe you will already be a little familiar with things.

First up, I have fallen in love with this:

I have always been curious about this machine and now I understand its beauty.  If you have been eyeing this machine at the gym, GO TRY IT OUT! I use about 180 lbs on the weight, but I was told that you should go somewhere near your own weight, probably a little heavier. Man oh Man, my arms and shoulders burn after doing this!! I can do about 10 of these babies in 3 sets. But by the last set I am STRUGGLING!! Ugh, I hate that feeling because I feel like all the Muscle heads are staring at me, calling me a wimp.  But that is okay. They can think what they want to!! Plus most of them stink and aren't as good looking as they think!! LOL

The first time I used this machine I was sore for days afterwards. I go about 40 lbs on this. I love the burn I get when I use this machine. I do a set of 12, 3 times.

I like this machine because I have used it 3 different ways.  One of the ways is how she is using it now. Another is with a band around my calves and this really makes you hold your form together and use different muscles. And the last way is to use one leg at a time (which was harder than I thought it would be). If I am using it like in the picture I usually do about 60 pounds (with no weights it already at 30 lbs) and the same weight if I am using the band. If I am doing it one legged, then I don't put any weights on it. 

I am still digging these too (curtsy lunges). I usually add weights, somewhere around 10 pounds. The first time I did this, I was sore for days. But I guess to be honest, I enjoy the feeling of being sore because I know that I had a good workout. I do about 12-15 reps for each leg 3 times.

The captains chair is something I use to use at the YMCA, but I just started to use it again at the new gym. I do as many as I can pulling my legs straight out (like in the top pic) and then I finish off the set with the bent knee version (bottom pic). I do a set of 12 and I can usually do about 8-9 with straight legs and then do about 3-4 with bent knees for the rest of the set. I do this 3 times.

Well those are just some of my favorites right now. I thought I would share them with you. I am going to try to get a long run in this weekend. My goal is 5 miles. I need to start logging my miles on a calendar because I think I might be caught up (60 miles in 60 days) on my running if I do a 5 mile run!! :) But I still need to reach my goal of 6 miles without stopping before the end of the month.

And I will probably be doing some of this over the weekend!!

YUMMMM!!!!

Oh and I had to add this.  I was going through my junk mail and I saw this.  LOL It just makes me laugh, who opens these?? It made me laugh.

Have a good weekend EVERYONE!!

If I won the Lotto

I was reading some of the other blogs and they are doing a link up with Kristie and Holly and I thought what the hell, this looks like fun. 

So here is my list:

1. We would pay off our house (we may or may not keep it, but it would be good to know that it is paid off).

2. I would buy my parents a dream house. Either they could stay where they are or I would buy them some land and get them something nice, they freaking deserve it. I would also do the same thing for my mother and father in-law. I would also do something nice for my siblings and my sibling-in-laws. 

3. Then I would buy the most beautiful RV there is (and a driver so my husband and I can enjoy a few adult beverages along the way) and travel all over the U.S. and find the most PERFECT place for us to live. My guess is that it would be in UTAH, I love that place. But I do know that it would be in the country some where, AWAY from people. 

I would like to see the country side, so I think traveling like this would be awesome. But maybe at some point we would fly.  But I would like to think traveling like this would be enough :) 

4. I would put money away for R's education

5. I would hire a house keeper and a personal chef, I do not enjoy cleaning or cooking, so that crap is out the window for me. 

6. Then I would throw a HUGE party for all my friends and family (fly them out to Utah, maybe rent a plane/jet and go pick them all up myself, WHOA that would be AWESOME). 

7. I would donate money to St. Jude's hospital (NO CHILD SHOULD HAVE CANCER) and then I would start or find a REALLY good Kidney Cancer foundation to donate to.

8.  I would start a foundation for couples who are recovering from a miscarriage. Help with medical bills, counseling, or just a shoulder to cry on. 

9. And to leave on a less serious note: I would blog about how awesome my life is!! LOL Have a GOOD THURSDAY! 

So What Wednesdays

I am totally doing this today.  I have seen other people do So What Wednesdays and today just feels like the day to join in. This is a link up with Shannon at Life after I dew. 
So What! If I quit the 30 Day Shred challenge. I did one day of it and it wasn't for me.  There was a lot of jumping and from what happened with P90X, I have learned that jumping is not a good thing for my body.  Shortly after doing the 30 day shred I could feel pain in my shins, so yep, I am done with the 30 day shred. Good bye! 
So What! If I am behind on my 60 miles in 60 days. I will make up for it this weekend. Boom, take that.  

This is what I will have to do this weekend to get caught up!! LOL 
So What! If I didn't make it to the gym yesterday and I had bread for dinner last night. It is what it is and I'm moving on. 
So What! If my kid isn't potty trained yet. I still love him and he will get it when he freaking gets it. 
So What! If I am not pregnant yet. I will, one day. And if one more person asks me, if we are going to have another one with a weird smirk on their face I am going to fly off the handle. It is our decision if we have another child or not. So butt out. (sorry to get a little grumpy on this, but if I have to say "yes we are currently trying, it just isn't happening ONE MORE time, I will probably explode.) 
So What! If I really want to run in a half marathon in November, but I'm too scared to register. It will probably happen soon, I just need to get the balls to register. 
So What! If I want to sell one of our cars so we can buy a jeep. I miss our jeep and I wish I would have never told Jed to sell it. Yeah yeah, I might have been wrong ONCE in my life. ;) 
So What! If I have an eye appointment and I some what considered cancelling it so I can go get my nails done and relax over my lunch break. (Btw - I won't cancel, but it was a nice thought)

Whewwwwww, I feel better. How about you?? LOL What is your "So what!" this week??? 

I can totally see R saying this to his friends!! LOL ;)

Yeah this sounds about right. 
Have a good week folks!! 

Lessons learned.

Sorry for not posting on Friday (okay actually you didn't notice until I just said that!! LOL) But I was busy doing this

not an actual pic of me! 

Okay people here is my warning, DO NOT MIX 

&

It will lead to nothing good!! I seriously felt like I was going to DIE! Thank goodness after 11:00 that morning I started to feel better.  But seriously people be careful with the Straw-ber-Rita's, they are more deadly than you think. I don't think I have felt that bad since LAST 4th of July!! LOL it seems to be a theme for me.  I don't particularly like that holiday so I should probably over do it so I don't bitch at my husband too much about the ridiculous things he is doing. STUPID! 

Any ways, I did have a good 4 day weekend, other than spending the 5th of July in the bathroom. I did get some running in and I spent some time with my favorite boys.

could they be any cuter together?!?!?

R and I went to Monster's University on Sunday afternoon.  It was a cute movie and it is the first movie that he has made it through at the movie theater. I have to say all in all it was a good weekend. 

R watching the movie.

Oh I also wanted to say that if you are running when it is 93 degrees outside that you should probably take some water with you.  I went for a run yesterday and the first mile felt GREAT and then shortly after that things went down hill and I couldn't figure it out. Well I had ZERO water before my run and it was taking a toll on me. Some days I forget the most simple things!! Duh Jessica, it is hot outside, you should probably drink water! So I ran 3 miles and then walked home the last mile and let me tell you that last mile that I walked was the WORST mile. I almost called Jed to have him pick me up. But once I got home and drank some water and cooled off, I started to feel a lot better. But what I did was stupid and I will NOT do that again. PLEASE PEOPLE LEARN FROM MY STUPIDITY, don't run unless you are properly hydrated or have water with you (especially if you are going for more than a mile!) 

Okay so why do I need to be able to run 8 miles without stopping by the middle of September.  And what event am I so worried about? It is the this:

I talked about this before, but now it feels like it is right around the corner. So yeah I need to get my ass in gear. From what I have read I NEED to be able to run 8 miles without stopping and strength training.  One of the things they suggest is to do some of your workouts at a play ground so you can get on the monkey bars and work on just holding on to your own weight. I still feel like I have a long ways to go before I am ready for this. It is a 12 mile obstacle course and it is pretty intense. There is fire, icy water, electric thingies, walls, mud, etc. I have not registered for it yet, I will probably do that at the end of this month. It is an expensive event and I have this weird feeling that I am going to find out I am pregnant right before the darn thing so I have been putting off the registration, I don't want to waste my money. But then again maybe the money will be worth it if it means that I will get pregnant!! LOL 

Have any of you done a Tough Mudder or a similar long obstacle course? If so, how did you train? Let me add that I will be doing this with a team so I am doing it solo, but I also don't want to be the one holding back my team. I am so excited for it, but also so scared at the same time. 

Well that is all I got for y'all today. I hope you all had a GREAT weekend. Now we return to our normal lives, 5 day work weeks and 2 day weekends. THAT REALLY SUCKS!! I think it should be mandatory to have a 4 weekend in EVERY month. Oh man, that would be AWESOME!!

See y'all on Wednesday!! 

Being sick sucks!

Yeah yeah. I got what R had last week. In fact Jed and I both got it at the same time.  Have you ever been sick at the exact same time as your husband/wife/partner? It is a little odd. It was nice having someone there, but at the same time I felt like I needed to help take care of him too.

Any ways, I am back at work today and to be honest I am not feeling the best. But I am not puking so that is a plus and I was able to take a shower and do all the things I have to do in the morning. So here I am wishing I was back in my comfy bed. Ugh.

You know what is annoying me the most about all of this?  1. I can't go to the gym 2. A freaking holiday is around the corner.  I HAVE to get better. I know that I will, but I feel like I am putting pressure on myself to get back to 100% so I can have fun and enjoy the 4th of July as much as it is possible (remember I don't particularly like this holiday, but I do like having the day off!!) The gym is closed tomorrow so that will be 3 days in a row without the gym. That makes me a little sad, but it is okay.

Another reason I am grumpy about this stupid stomach bug is because I had HUGE plans for July.  I had goals that I wanted to reach and one of those goals was NOT to sit on my couch feeling ill!! Okay I promise that is the last time I will mention being sick! But here are the goals I wrote down for July

Push up Challenge you can find HERE.  I thought this might help me with those darn push-ups that I have to do in my Group Power class.  I still HATE push ups so I thought this might help me hate them a little less. Maybe, maybe not.  It is worth a try.

There is a 30 day shred by Jillian Michaels (Bigger Loser trainer) and I have heard people talking about it for a long time and I thought I could handle that along with my normal gym activity. It is around 10 bucks at Wal-mart. If you want to know more on the challenge that other bloggers are doing, then go HERE. I still need to take my before pics, I hope to get that done tonight.

Supposedly from the 5th of July to Labor day there are exactly 60 days, I have NOT done that math, I am trusting the other people on this. You can read more about that HERE. And they thought it was a good day to run a mile every day or if you are ambitious then you can skip a day, but run extra miles on other days.  I thought this might encourage me to put my running shoes on and FREAKING RUN!

Running 6 miles without stopping is my own thing.  I NEED to be able to run 8 miles without stopping by September because, well I will get to that later.

And I need to decided if I am running a half marathon this fall.  I know that I probably can achieve this if I put my mind to it, but I can't really decide if I WANT to run a half marathon. But by the end of July I need to make up my freaking mind.  I can't start training for a fall half marathon after August and feel comfortable about running in it.

Those are my July goals. I may have over done it, but I think this is possible.  What do you think?? Do you want to join me in any of these or ALL of them?? I can send out reminders or I can post pics on instagram with a certain hashtag.  You tell me!!! Just don't leave me hanging!!! Come on, I can't be the only crazy person out there, right??  I know what you are thinking, some of this we are a couple of days behind.  That is okay. I will double up on my 30 day shred sometime during the weekend, you can TOTALLY do this still. Same with the push-up challenge.  Also let me add that the 30 day shred only takes about 20 minutes a day!! Winner winner chicken dinner!

On Friday I promise I will talk about what I am worried about and why I need to be able to run 8 miles. Until then have a GREAT 4th of July and try not to get blown up.

Oh the joys of a weekend!!

Oh weekend, where did you go?? And why do you go by so darn fast?? Oh well the weekend is gone and a new week is beginning.  This week tends to be an important one around our house because my husband LOVES 4th of July because it gives him an excuse to blow things up. I, on the other hand, try to stay clear of all the explosions. I always seem to get burnt and I don't even light anything, it pisses me off to be honest. The punks that the kids carry around make me INCREDIBLY nervous, not for them, but for myself. I just know one of those suckers are going to run by me and burn me with that stupid punk. ugh.... Okay I am done complaining about it.

This weekend was pretty laid back. Jed came home from work on Friday and did some of this

So I took the opportunity to "steal" his glasses and do this:

Sexy!!!

He still doesn't know that I took this picture so you know keep it on the down low. LOL I told you his glasses were horrible!! 

On Saturday my parents were in town, but couldn't stay too long. We all went in on a whole cow of beef and they came over to split the beef in half. We haven't had any steaks yet, but I did cook up some ground beef and it was pretty tasty.

This also took place on Saturday

He loves that dog!!! Sahara is truly R's best friend and it just makes me so happy to see them together. Sahara was my first baby and I'm so glad that she is so gentle with R. 

Then on Sunday I decided that I would go for a run.  My goal was to run 3 miles.  After my 1st mile I was thinking that I felt pretty darn good and that 4 miles MIGHT be possible. The weather was beautiful and there was a nice breeze so the weather conditions were just right. I wasn't running that fast, I have ran much faster, but the pace I was going felt GOOD and it didn't feel like I was constantly having to push myself. After mile 3 I did have to give myself a pep talk to get to mile 4, but I did it. And I ran a little extra too! 

It is funny how that works because after running 4 miles I actually thought a half marathon might be do-able, but the more I think about it, the more I think that I don't WANT to run a half marathon.  I like running, but that is a CRAP ton of running. I guess I will keep doing what I am doing. I will run when I want to (usually on the weekends because I don't want to go to the gym). Either way, I was pretty darn proud of myself after that run.

Oh and in the afternoon we did some of this

Ignore how goofy I look.  I was trying to get all three of us in a pic. 

We took a RZR ride through the country and ended up at a friends house for dinner and some fire works (insert grumpy face by me). It was a lot of fun and I had my first one of these:

And I have to say it was pretty darn tasty!! I'm digging it.  I may have to consume A LOT of them on Thursday to get through the day!! LOL

I hope y'all had a good weekend. I will see ya on Wednesday.  On Wednesday I will give you an update on what I am starting to worry about. September is going to be here before you know it and I'm starting to get a little nervous.  Why you ask?? Well tune in on Wednesday and I will let you know!!