Link up and stolen hats

Whewwwww!!! The last couple of days have been busy ones and this weekend will busy as well.  I like it!! First I am doing my link up today.

 

Well I said I would weigh in on Fridays because I am doing my Fat to Fit link up and today I weighed, 172.4. Booya!! I love when the scale goes down and NOT UP!! I also want to add that when I stepped on the scale I had wet hair.  I usually weigh myself before I take a shower and this morning I completely forgot to do it and I almost said screw it, but in the end I got on that stinking scale and Ta Da, a lower number. YAY!!! I did not want to get on the scale for a few reasons, but my biggest one was the concert that I went to last night and the wine and beer that I drank. 

Jason Boland and the Stragglers. Good times!!!

 

But it was a good time. I went with my husband and our roommate.  I tried to take some pics with my hubby and they turned out horrible, oh heck I will share one with ya any ways.

My husband ALWAYS takes a good pic, me on the other hand, not so much.

 

 

Fun was had by all. Especially me!! I danced, I hooted and hollered, I chit chatted with friends that I haven't seen in a while, I invited people to go on a Warrior Dash with me, and I stole a guys hat.  Yep, you read that right.  I stole a hat and then I did this to it.

Jason Boland's signature

 

Some of y'all are asking, why did you steal a hat? Well, I do stupid stuff when I am drunk. I actually know the guy who I stole it from and I thought it was funny at first. But then I needed something for JB to sign and well, it just happened. So the kid (I call everyone a kid, he is not a kid. He is my age) thought I was going to give it back, WRONG.  I, of course, took it one step further and told him if he beats me at the 5K on Saturday then he can have it back. He was planning on running it anyways, so I thought I would give him a little bit more motivation.  Was it my place to give him motivation? No, but I did it anyways. But it didn't end there.  He was pretty sure I was NEVER going to give him his hat back, but I will, so he wanted something of mine in return.  So I handed over my button down denim shirt.  Yeah I looked like an idiot. Don't worry folks, I had a sequin tank top on underneath it. But that tank top is a little big and I HATE showing my arms so I felt naked and looked goofy. So now, if I beat him in the 5K I will get my shirt back which I really like BTW.  Oh did I mention that it was signed by JB too.  So if the pressure wasn't on before it is now! Matt, I am going to kick your arse this weekend in the 5K!!! Say goodbye to your hat!!

 

 

On Wednesday afternoon I did some of this:

 

See I told you I was getting some muscles. And yes I am showing my arms, but only to show you the muscles.  I will be wearing some kind of cardigan over the tank top when I wear it again. I seriously hate having exposed arms, I just don't like my arms right now :( One day that will get better I know. Baby steps!

 

I ended up getting all of that stuff and I wore the pants in the top pic yesterday.  What do you think of them? I had to step out of my comfort zone for those. You can't tell in the pic, but they are black with white polka dots. They are also short which I realize is the style, but I felt weird all day yesterday wearing them. I will say that they didn't fall off and weren't frumpy so I was happy with that.

 

So Saturday is the BIG day.  I run my first 5K!!!!! I am pretty freaking nervous. I really want to finish it and NOT walk. I know it won't be a record setting run, but if I make it to the finish line I will be happy!

 

So with NEVER having run a 5K before I went ahead and signed up for another one!!!! Yeah, the Color Me Rad officially has my registration money and I am running with my some of my cousins. Then I put on facebook that I am going to run/participate in the Warrior Dash in KC on April 27th.  If you are bored that weekend you should come join me. So yeah, I might be a little insane, but I am truly enjoying the ride so far. I guess I am scared that if I slow down then I will stop all together and I don't want that. So here is to more 5Ks and a couple Warrior Dashes.

 

Folks have a good weekend.  I am really looking forward to mine.  On Monday I will let you y'all know how I did. And if I seriously see an Easter Bunny I will freak out.  I don't do mascots or people dressed up in animal costumes. UGGGGG I hate them. Actually, maybe I should pay someone to run behind me wearing an Easter bunny costume, then I might break some records. LOL But seriously I hate stuff like that, I freak out. One time we went to Red Robin in Colorado and I spent most of the time in the bathroom because that stupid bird scared me. You can't see who is in those costumes and that freaks me out. So now you know a little bit more about me! Adios muchachos.

 

 

 



 





Change

There are two changes I want to talk/write about today.  First, I am going to weigh in on Friday's now. So I will not have a weight loss/gain for you today, sorry.  You y'all have to wait till Friday now. The second change is my body and why isn't it getting me excited?? I guess I should ask, why am I not as excited as I thought I would be. Okay let me back up a little bit. First of all I think I am a little depressed because I didn't work out for 5 days last week/weekend and so when we started up again on Sunday I felt like it was my first day doing P90X again, it was pretty depressing. Then Monday came and it was freaking hard too. So I have been regretting taking those 5 days off.  It wasn't that I necessarily wanted to take 5 days off, but that stupid cough/cold prevented me from doing it. There were a couple of nights that I put my work out clothes on to only go to bed in them. I would end up coughing and coughing to where I thought I might lose my dinner, no bueno. So I would take some cough syrup and go to bed like a good girl, but this didn't help me mentally. I was scared that I would NEVER do P90X again. Why, you ask? Because, this is typical Jessica. She gets ALL sorts of excited for something and does pretty good for a while, but then it fizzles.  It is usually something like a cough, cold, flu, injury or something that gets me out of my routine and I have a hard time getting back into the routine. But I would get use to NOT working out and I liked the extra time it allows me to watch TV, clean my house, run extra errands, read a book, all the things that keep you from getting off that couch.  So needless to say I was glad I got back on the P90X wagon, but I was upset that in FIVE FREAKING days things could change so much. Lesson that I learned from this, you CAN'T take Five days off and expect things to be the same. So what I need to tell myself is "I came back, take that as a win!" I am sure in a few weeks this will all just be a memory.

Another change in my body is that I am losing inches, YAY!! Right?!?! Yes, I am excited to be getting smaller, but it is also a little sad. I put on some work pants that I haven't worn in a while and they are pretty darn BIG and the button up shirt I am wearing use to be pretty DARN tight, but it is loose today.  All good things right?? So why don't I feel good about this?? I think it is because when I look in the mirror I don't see a difference.  I still get mad at all my in perfections. I just don't see it?? Some days I hate the mirror. The thing is, I am honestly TRYING to see the differences. The only real difference I can tell is in my arms, I have MUSCLES now!! One day I will get gutsy enough to take a picture of my "guns". LOL They aren't very big, but at least there is muscle there instead of a bunch of fat! But as far as my gut goes (my least favorite body part/section), I can't see it. And I know that it is changing because like I said my pants are almost to the point where I shouldn't be wearing them any more. I think my problem is shopping!! Yes I said it. I don't want to go shopping because I am scared that I will go there and the next size down won't fit.  I am so scared that all these changes are just in my head. And yes I have had people tell me they can tell that I have lost weight, but it just isn't sinking in. My husband has told me he can tell a difference, but I still think people are being nice. UGGGG why can't this particular part be easy?? Why do I have to be such a whiny girl about this?? I know people who have bought a goal outfit or jeans  and put them near their treadmill so they can see what they are working towards, but I can't even do that.  Why?? Because I am scared I won't get there!!! STUPID, I know!!

Another reason I think this is bothering me so much is because I keep asking myself, "why did I let myself get to this point?" And yes this point isn't near as bad as it could have been, but I look at how I have been living and the life I had before I started P90X.  I feel so much more alive now than I did before I put the 1st disc of P90X in.  I want to do more and experience more. But I also have known for A LONG time that I wanted to lose weight so why did I wait so long or why did I get to this point? And I'm not going to blame pregnancy because I lost all that weight fairly quick to only gain it back. But why didn't I do something before I got pregnant? Yes changing my life style is hard and P90X can be hard, but it wouldn't have been as hard if I had only done this sooner.  I know it isn't healthy to dwell on this, but I found myself asking this the last couple of days. Probably because I realize after 5 days how hard it was to jump back into working out. Had I only continued to be healthy after our wedding I wouldn't be in this boat.  Do you know I was running 6 miles at a time by the time I got married, why did I stop?? I know that life can get in the way of things, but my health should have NEVER taken a back seat to the rest of my life. Don't let this happen to you!! Do whatever you have to do to be healthy and stay healthy. PLEASE, for my sake and for yours.

 So as soon as I hit the publish button on this post I am going to stop complaining about this. I am going to take this problem by the horns and just deal with it. This afternoon I am going to go shopping. Wish me luck. I hope that I don't come out of that dressing room crying, but something has to be done with these pants. It sad when your dress clothes make you look like a frumpy mess. And please don't think I am asking for sympathy because that isn't what I am trying to get out of this. This is all part of my journey so therefore it needs to be on this blog. I know I am not the only one out there with these issues. FEAR it is a real part of weight loss. I wish it could be all smiles, but it isn't.

On a positive note I have A LOT to look forward to this week/weekend!! I have a Jason Boland Concert on Thursday night (I am so freaking excited about this!!), Friday is the beginning of softball (I am more excited about this as it gets closer and closer), Saturday I run in my FIRST 5K (I am VERY nervous about this since I haven't ran in a while!!), and Sunday is Easter and we will be going to Great Bend to see my family (this is ALWAYS a good thing!!). Lots of good things to look forward to, which I can't complain about!! :)



This is the 5K I will be running in this weekend!! 

Thanks for being here for me, I always feel better after I blog about these silly thoughts and feelings. If a friend told me she was having these thoughts and feelings I would tell her to hold her head up high and be proud of the things she has accomplished and not to dwell on the things you can't change.  You can't change the past, all you can do it go forward and take the things you have learned with you. So that is what I am going to do. I am going to look forward to things that I haven't yet accomplished and enjoy the things that I have done!! And for crying out loud I am going to go buy some new pants!! Enjoy the rest of your week folks!!

Weekend recap

It is Monday folks!! What you aren't excited that your weekend is over?? Okay me neither.  I would rather be at home snuggling with R. Ohhh who am I kidding, that kid doesn't cuddle anymore, but you know what I mean.

Friday night we (all three of us) went to a friend's birthday party.  You know you are old when you go to a friend's party and there are more kids than adults. It was a good time though, it is nice when you go somewhere with your child and he isn't the old child. It is nice to be surrounded by other parents as well because they have the same frustrations as you do and you can joke about them after having a few drinks!!

Then on Saturday we had a few friends over to make some healthy recipes that we have all been looking at.  I did some pretty basic things, but I tried a spicy quinoa salad and a cheesy spaghetti squash.  I got the recipes off the Internet, of course! http://www.skinnytaste.com is where I got the recipe for the spaghetti squash.

(these are not my pictures, I totally forgot to take any, but it did look pretty similar to this)

 

 

Once again, I did not take a pic of my salad. Sorry!!

 

This is where I got the recipe for the salad http://www.keyingredient.com. 

 

 

not my pic. sorry :(



 

http://www.tasteofhome.com this is where my friend Natalie got this Cod recipe.  Let me tell you, the cod was really good.  I really liked it and I am NOT a fish person.  I will be making this sometime soon. The asparagus was really good too.  The spaghetti squash was pretty tasty too, but I should have cooked it alittle longer. The quinoa salad was pretty good as well, it was a little different, but I liked it.  I brought it with me for lunch today!!

 

I also learned that I really like this:

OMG, this stuff is freaking good. I drank the whole bottle in one evening. I will definitely be purchasing this in the future.  It is a sweet white wine, give it a try. 

So on Sunday we got back to normal. I did a bunch of laundry (BOOO!!!) and we got back to P90X.  We almost didn't work out, R didn't want to fall asleep until almost 9:45 and I was so frustrated that I almost said forget it.  But we (okay, I ) NEEDED to workout, we hadn't done anything since the previous Monday!! After doing plyometrics (a P90X disc) we decided that a 5 day break is not recommended when doing P90X. We were out of shape, already!! It didn't help that we were sick for most of the week and we had a freaking fire (literally a fire in the fire place) burning in the same room.  But afterwards at 10:45ish we were both really glad that we worked out. We felt even better about the decision the next morning. So note to self: DON'T TAKE TOO BIG OF A BREAK FROM P90X!!

We also made another ATV/UTV purchase:

Yeah my little guy got his first motorized 3-wheeler. Yeah that might make us a redneck, but I don't care. He is in love with it!! I am not a big fan of the punisher skulls, but those can be removed or painted over. He is a little too small to really ride it yet, but we are hoping this summer or fall he might be ready.  Until then, his father will enjoy riding it, so lets hope it makes it to this summer or fall!!! AND YES HE WILL WEAR A HELMET WHEN RIDING IT!! We haven't completely lost our brains and I would like my son's to remain unharmed after riding the 3-wheeler. 

So all in all, we had a good weekend. I did get some cuddles:

 Look at that smile, wouldn't you want to spend all day with him?? I guess a girl has to work too, it makes those moments all the more special :)

See y'all on Wednesday, I think I will start weighing in on Fridays because that is when I will hook up with my link-up buddies again!! So who knows what I will write a novel about on Wednesday!!

 



Bad Choices and Link up

First I want to say HAPPY FREAKING FRIDAY!! We made it another week!!

Secondly I had 3 donuts yesterday and a bottle of chocolate milk and it was freaking amazing.  Then for supper I had Martinelli's with my awesome husband, R was at home with a babysitter eating waffles, his loss, who am I kidding, that kid wouldn't have eaten anything!! Any who, I had some delicious egg plant Parmesan. I have NEVER had that before and it was pleasantly surprised, I would definitely eat that again. I realize all of this was not good/healthy to eat, but I think I needed just a bad day. I DO NOT RECOMMEND THIS THOUGH. But the whole healthy eating thing has just been on my mind some much that I needed to blow a whole day out of the water and today I am looking forward to getting back on track :) One day of bad eating is going to ruin all your hard work as long as you can make better choices the next day. Today I feel like a new woman.  I am also going to participate in my FIRST link up!! People be patient with me, I have NEVER done this. But I think it will help me get back on the right path. Two of the ladies hosting this link-up I am familiar with, I have been reading their blogs for a while now.  The other lady (Jenna) I am new to her blog, but I look forward to getting to know her :)

 

One of the requirements of the link-up is to talk about how I stay motivated. Well to be honest, y'all help me stay motivated.  I am constantly getting encouragement from y'all and that is so helpful.  I have also been told that I have inspired some of you and that is HUGE.  For those that have told me this, I don't want to let you down. I don't want to be a Kristy Alley (which I think she has lost weight and kept it off, but I don't know.  I don't have time to keep up with Kristy Alley) and make promises of losing weight to only gain weight. Another thing that keeps me motivated are my clothes.  They keep getting bigger and bigger, which is AWESOME.  I have yet to buy a lot of new clothes because I am a little scared this is all a trick my husband is playing on me and when I get to the store I will have realized that I am much bigger than I think.  It is so true when you hear people say "I still don't see myself skinny/smaller, I still see myself as big/fat." I find this weird because for years I never thought I was as big as I was, I kept seeing myself as the 120lb girl that I was in high school.  Until I saw pictures and then I would be like "Holy Cow, who is that girl?" and that girl would be me. Funny how things change.

 

Lastly, what keeps me motivated is my son. I really want to take him to the swimming pool this year and to be comfortable in a bathing suit. Last year I avoided the swimming pool completely. I blamed it on R's tubes in his ear, but really I didn't want to put on a swimming suit. Isn't that sad??? I don't want R to be unfamiliar with swimming because his mom has "weight issues". So that stops now!!!

 

So there you have it. I don't want you guys/gals to think that I fluff things, this is me! These are my true feelings, concerns, and struggles. People tell me that they are so impressed that I am doing P90X (which I have not done since Monday because of this stupid cough/cold), but people I am just a girl (I guess I should say woman) trying to get fit. Nothing more. I have an amazing husband that puts up with my whining during P90X. He motivates me (crap, I should have added him to my list of motivation, oh well I am adding that now). Without my husband I honestly don't know if I could do P90X. He pushes me and encourages me when I need it.  He also irritates the hell out of me at times, for example:

 

Husband: You are not suppose to bend your legs (But what I hear, YOU ARE DOING IT WRONG, STRAIGHTEN YOUR LEGS!!)

 

Me:  If I could do it without bending my legs then I (insert the F bomb here) would!! (Then I would have thoughts of kicking him in his straight legs!!!)

 

So yes we have our moments, probably more than I would like to recount, but he also is incredibly encouraging and helpful.

 

Adios!! That is about the extent of my Spanish speaking abilities, LOL. Have a good weekend and stay warm, it is suppose to get pretty darn cold!!

Say goodbye to another pound!!

Well I can say goodbye to another pound!! YAY!!!

My first thought on a pound is "so what?  It is just a pound." But then I started to think that since I started P90X (which was before I started my blog) I have lost 11 pounds! This is the first time I have EVER lost more than 10 pounds.  I met my first little goal, I lost over 10 pounds.  And that is amazing! What is more amazing is that I have done with this exercise and eating right.  I haven't taken any supplements or any weightloss drugs.  This is ALL ME!!! Now that is something to be proud of :) And you better believe that I am.

Good to know that this is no longer in my body (GOOD BYE 11 pounds of FAT!!)

I am wearing a pair of pants that use to dig into my gut when I sat down, but now they are super comfortable :) my shirts fit me A LOT better, and I don't feel like an idiot wearing running shorts. I do realize that I still have more weight to lose and toning up to do, but for right now I am enjoying this moment. It feels like I can see the light at the end of the VERY LONG tunnel.

So now I move on to another goal, to lose another 10 pounds, run a 5K (which will happen March 30th!!), and to complete P90X.  Those are the things that I have in my sight right now.  I have some other things in the distance, but for right now those are the things that I am focusing on!

Sorry for no personal pictures in this post.  I have been sickly and haven't felt like taking pics. I hope you all are having a good week. Just think we are half way done with the week :)

Sorry it has been a while since I posted anything. To be honest I don't have a lot to write about and I have a stupid cold/cough. I have not been sleeping like I would like to and I haven't been feeling that awesome. But life goes on and so does P90X and running. Last Friday I ran a little over 2 miles and then stopped for a while and then continued to run. So on my MapMyRun it shows that I ran.....

But after walking for a little bit (and feeling like a loser for not completing my 3 miles) I started to run again, but of course I had already hit the stop/end button on my phone.  So I probably ended up running darn close to 3  miles.  I was pretty disappointed that I couldn't run the 3 miles without stopping, but at least I got my butt outside and ran!! This is what I looked like at the end of my run.

Yeah I know, I look AWESOME!! NOT!! I felt like I was going to die.  My throat has been bugging me and I am guessing my nose was running like a water facet at this time too. I am telling you folks this cold is NO joke, but I am surviving it. That night we did not do P90X so I was even happier that I ran. Saturday we didn't do any P90x because we had house guests and wanted to enjoy our time with them, but Sunday night we were back to the grind of things. Speaking of Sunday, I was struggling.  I don't know if it was the cold or the beer that I drank the night before, but I felt horrible and P90X that night was a struggle. I am honestly thinking of giving up beer/wine/alcohol. WHAT?!?!?! Did I just say that?? Don't hold me to this folks, it just something I have been thinking about lately.  I LOVE ME SOME WINE!!! I also heart beer.  So this might be hard. But my body is tired and sluggish the day after a night of drinking.  I am not 21 any more and maybe I should stop prettending that I am ;) Oh crap who am I kidding, I can't give up alcohol.  But I may have to drink less, yeah that seems like a good compromise. But to be honest I am really hoping it is the cold that is causing me to feel bad.

I hope y'all are able to stay away from this cold that is going around. I honestly feel like laying my head on this keyboard and taking a two hour nap!! Have a good week, I will try to post tomorrow since it will be weigh in day.

What today isn't Wednesday?!?!?

I am off a day, I guess.  I apologize for that. To be completely honest I wrote some stuff yesterday, but I wasn't feeling it.  It felt like I was forcing it and I don't want you guys to read something that I am not feeling.  Does that make any sense? So no post yesterday. Oh well it looks like y'all survived. I will admit that when I follow a blogger it is irritating when they don't post anything. So I apologize for keeping you waiting.

First my weight didn't change.  It is the same. I was a little disappointed, but at the same time I know why it didn't go down.  I ate what ever I wanted these last few days. As I said before you can't out train a bad diet. So there it is. Lesson learned!!!

On a positive note I RAN 3.03 MILES YESTERDAY!!!!

I am enjoying this app. I just need to get an arm band for my phone.  I was holding it in my hand yesterday :(



 

 

I mean United States isn't going to be knocking on my door asking me to run in the next olympics, but geesh give me a break.  After I was done I felt like doing this:

But there were A LOT of people around and since I looked like I was going to die, I didn't want them to think I was having a siezure or something like that. That could have been bad! Any ways, you get what I am saying.  I felt awesome after running.  I actually ran a little faster than I thought so that was a plus too.  My goal pace WAS 12:00 min/mi, but now I will have to adjust that. Let me also add that I wasn't feeling the greatest either, I have been battling a sore throat and a cough, so all in all I am freaking happy about my run! With my first 5K coming up at the end of the month I am feeling pretty good about it. I am not going to win any metals (unless goofiest dressed person is a category, pics to come, keep scrolling down) but my goal is to FINISH a 5K; I think I can handle that!!

So I am on cloud nine when I get home and I feel like Rocky (look at the above pic, and you if you don't know what I am talking about then you need to have your head examined), but there isn't a single soul in the house. BOO!! I mean bragging on FB feels good, but I was really excited to share my news with my husband. Then I get a text to put my coat on and come outside to go for a ride. ALRIGHT, a 5K and and a RZR ride all in one day.  Man, I am one lucky girl.  If you don't know what a RZR is, look below. 

We made this purchase last week.  And I haven't had a chance to ride in it yet.  I have to say, I LOVE IT!!! We only played around for a few minutes on our land, but man it was fun.  We had a blast. Then we came in and made supper. We had hamburgers and a salad.  I made mine pretty small, but I really need to get back to eating healthier.  A constant struggle for me!! But I will get there :) So after we ate; let me add that my child had 3-4 bites of his hamburger (SCORE),  we played for a little bit, but it was time for R's bed time so we got him ready.  While I was putting R to bed I told my husband to go ahead and start P90X without me because we had a late start to putting R to bed. He immediately told me that they weren't in any hurry, so I should take my time with R and then when I was done then we would start P90X. OHHHH MAN, I was really hoping I would get out of it. So after I put R to bed, I walked my sorry butt downstairs and did P90X, to top it off it was the one with a million push-ups and y'all know how I feel about them :( But Afterwards I was pretty darn happy with myself. 3 miles and P90X, Who the heck am I?? Now, today is a different story, I am freaking tired. But the more water I drink the more energy I am getting so that is good. I have a feeling I am going to sleep really good tonight :)

Well that is all the bragging I have for today!! I am going to leave you with a pic of what I wore last night to do P90X.  Don't go stealing my style now! You find this outfit on Pinterest!! LOL

We decided that I looked like a Rodeo clown, but I needed a barrel to wear!! LOL At least the boys got a good laugh. Let me add that I did not wear that to run in. Good Golly, I wouldn't wear that in public, I would just put it on my blog! LOL

 

I Hope the rest of your week goes smoothly. Enjoy this KS weather folks, it won't last forever!!! 

So this week isn't starting out too hot!

I am going to be short with this post, I have a headache the size of Texas and it is putting me in a fog today. Not how I wanted to start the week off, but whatever.

I had a GREAT time at the wedding this weekend. I ended up wearing the green dress, but I bought a short black cardigan style sweater instead of the white.  I had black shoes and I knew it would bug me if I wore a white jacket without the white shoes. But thank you on all the compliments last week.  You guys really know how to make a girl feel special!

 Any ways, the wedding was beautiful and my cousin Kelsey was stunning. I love her husband and I know that they will have a beautiful life together.

My cousin taking time out to hold my little guy (well he isn't that little any more, but he always will be to me, sniff, sniff!)

R LOVES Sean.  They are best buds! He is really lucky to have both Kelsey and Sean in his life!

R playing under the wedding party's table.  He liked the lights and then he found some shoes.  You will notice he is not wearing his.  He thought it was fun to sprint around the receiption hall without them! He wore us out!!

Okay this one is NOT from the wedding. But isn't he such a cheeseball. I love that little superman!!

Before we left on Sunday we were told that interstate was closed and we would not be able to get home. We looked outside and sure enough it had snowed.  Our hotel was close to the interstate and we could see people going down it.  So the hard headed people that we are, we packed up and headed East to Salina. It was scary at times, but we made it home. It wasn't the amount of snow that we received it was the wind that was blowing it around that made it difficult to see the road. Of course this also made the roads very icy.  So we took it slow and made our way home. And today the sun is shining and the snow will be gone before we know it :) The weather should be significantly better this week, I might even try to run outside.  But as you know KS weather it will be sunny one day and a blizzard the next, so I don't have high hopes for much out door running ; )

I hope y'all have a good week. On Wednesay I will post my weigh in and then I might talk about something that has nothing to do with fitness or healthy eating, but it has been on my mind lately.  Just as a heads up.

 

So what do I eat??????

I told you I would post what I eat, so here it is........................................................................

Breakfast - Toast with PB (peanut butter) and bananas... OMG I almost forgot the coffee I intake every day.  With a little bit of creamer.  I am really digging the vanilla and cinnamon flavored creamer.  Lay off people, this the only really unhealthy thing I let myself have.  One day I will decrease my creamer intake, but for now it is a HEAVENLY treat I have EVERY DAY!

Snack - Apple or some kind of fruit

Lunch - Turkey sandwich and I use a flat bread called Fold it, by Flat out.  I like it!! I put turkey, cheese, and a dab of Southwest Chipotle ranch on it. It is VERY YUMMY!! If you use strong flavored ingredients then you don't need a lot of it.  The cheese I  use is also Colby/pepper jack.  OMG, it is so good. I love that stuff. Then I usually bring some sweet pepper and they are pretty darn yummy too.

Snack - Apple or turkey and cheese. I am at work, I am not going to bring a bunch of crap.  I don't have space for it or time to plan out 3-4 meals while I am at work. I am lucky if I grab a banana or apple.

Dinner - This was one changes from night to night.  Last night we had lasgana, and I realize that isn't the healthiest thing.  But previous nights we had stuffed peppers with Turkey meat.  Another night we had a penne pasta with Turkey meat and whole wheat noodles.  So we are doing better.  My husband is even on board with most of what I make. Neither one of us were a fan of the penne pasta meal, but it was worth a try.

So there you have it.  That is what is going in my tummy on a regular basis.  NOW THE WEEKEND IS A WHOLE ANOTHER STORY!! I don't eat snacks.  Don't ask me why, I think it is because I have a crazy 2 year old running around and stopping to eat a snack is the last thing on my mind. So then by the time lunch or supper rolls around I am starving and I will eat anything!! Seriously people, ANYTHING! So i guess my real problem is snacking, I need to remember to snack!!

OHHHH if my calorie intake is pretty low for the day I will eat a banana and some PB after P90X. And if I think I am going to be running and doing P90X then I will make sure I have some PB with my apple during snack time. I do like to munch on nuts as well, HAHAHAHA.  Okay that was gross.  But I do like Kroger's mixed nuts and I try to get them with as little salt as possible. It seems like if I have a handful of those then I can make it to supper without eating a bunch of other stuff.

What I love about my house lately is that our fruit bowl is constantly being emptied and replenished. And our candy bowl looks exactly the same every day.  2 candy bars, a snickers egg (from last year's easter, I should probably throw that away), a few rolos, and a few sucks from Halloween.  Okay I just decided I am getting rid the candy jar.  Most of it needs to be thrown away anyways.  Maybe I have a candy hoarding problem.  LOL.  We use to keep it stocked with fun size snickers, but we stopped buying those once we started P90X. And to be honest I don't miss them. I did purchase a Reeses peanut butter egg the other day and let me tell you, it was GLORIOUS!! But when i let myself have those treats they taste so much better than they did a year ago.  Why do you ask?? Well because they weren't special.  I ate them so much that most the time I didn't take the time to enjoy them. You know what I mean? So now I enjoy the little treats I let myself have.

I hope y'all have a good weekend. I am heading to Hays for a wedding.  My beautiful cousin Kelsey is getting married!! YAY!!! It should be a good weekend. Here are my two dress options.  what do you guys think??

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I think we decided last night to go with the green one, but what do you guys think?? The black one has little white polka dots with some frillie stuff in the front.  I think that is why I am not crazy about it.  Either way, trying on clothes doesn't suck as much as it use to! I went down a size. Last September I put on an Extra Large and it BARELY freaking zipped up. Now my Large dress zips up perfectly and I have feel comfortable in it!! :) You got to enjoy the little things folks!! HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND!

Oh I got to add this photo.  I liked this one, our PAT (Parents As Teacher) consultant took it at story time at the zoo.  I really like that program. 

NOW GO ENJOY YOUR FRIDAY AND WEEKEND!!

Wednesday's weigh in

Well this morning my scale said this:

So the scale continues to go down!! I Like that. I am a happy girl today!

Running update:  I ran 2 miles yesterday and it took 22 minutes and 12 seconds.  Not shabby.  I am not going to set any world records by any means, but the fact that I am running under 12 minutes a mile makes me a little happy. I need nice weather so I can run outside.

P90X update: We did Chest, Shoulders, and Triceps last night and boy oh boy did it kick my butt.  This is the one where we do a boat load of push-ups, BOO!! My body was already tired from running after work, but I knew I needed to push it during P90X. So I did the best I could and lifted heavier weights and didn't just give up on my push-ups. Don't get me wrong, I took breaks during our push-up portions, but I stayed with it. I really do not like push-ups.

For the first time I am starting to have people tell me that they can tell a little difference.  My mother said that she could tell in the sweater that I was wearing!! BOO YA!! Then my husband said that I was his disappearing wife (At first I was completely confused by this and had to ask what that meant) and he said that I am slowing disappearing on him, his way of saying I am getting smaller. YAY!!!! So it isn't all in my head!! But more than anything I am able to tell a difference.  The celulite in my legs is disappearing, my tummy isn't as big, and there are little tiny muscles in my arms!! But it is nice to hear other people say that they can tell a difference because it means that I am not making stuff up or reading too much into things. I still have a LONG way to go, but I want to enjoy these little things along the way.

My wonderful sister-in-law mentioned something about a Warrior Dash in Colorado and I told her let's do it!! It isn't until August, so we both have a while to train for it, but I am so excited. There is another one in Kansas City coming up in April and I am on the fence about whether or not I should attempt that one. I don't think I am any where close to doing that one. But I also think it would be fun and might tell me what I need to work on for the one in Colorado.  The one in Colorado has me a little concerned because of the altitude, so I know I am going to have to be ready for that one. Who knows, but I love the possiblities. I love the fact that I am excited about these kind of things again.  6 months ago I was so grumpy about anything physical because I was so out of shape and I didn't know where to begin. I would have NEVER signed up for Warrior Dash 6 months ago. I love that I am enjoying being athletic again.  I start softball this month and I am excited to see the difference from last year to this year.

Picture update:  I took some pics this morning, but they didn't turn out that good.  I need to either take them with my nice camera or find another room to take my pics. But I am hoping in the next week or two I will post some new pics.  I was pretty disappointed this morning when I couldn't tell a difference, but I think it has to do with the lighting and how far away I was from the mirror.  I will get it figured out though. 

Everyone have a good week, Friday will be here before you know it. Maybe Friday I will post some of my recipes that I have been making and you guys/gals can tell me what you think. Maybe I will post what I eat on a normal day.  You can check myfitnesspal app, but for those not on there this might be easier. What is your favorite healthy snack?? I am always looking for something new and yummy!!

I like these quotes becasue they are some of the main reasons I do P90X. I WILL SEE THE END OF WEEK 13!! 

A bunch of Randomness

Is Randomness a word?? Well now it is!!

How was every one's weekend?? Well you all know that weekends are weakness, it is basically my kryptonite. This weekend takes the cake though!! I am guessing my weight on Wednesday is going to be in the 200 plus! I kid you not.  I ate like it was my last meal for every meal on Saturday. Don't ask me what happened?? I have no freaking idea. On top of that, I went to bed super early on Friday night and DID NOT work out. BOO!!! I know. I did do Yoga (P90X style) on Saturday before I headed to Great Bend for my father's birthday celebration. Also on Sunday we did do our Leg and back workout. But as far as eating healthy it just flew right out the window.  I also drank some brewskies (beer) on Saturday night so lets just say my calorie count was RIDICULOUS, I didn't keep track, I think myfitness app would have exploded on me. YIKES! So enough of that.  I am not going to think about it any more. It is Monday and I am back to my normal routine, oh how I love routine.

I have a wedding to attend on this upcoming Saturday and to be honest I was hoping to have lost ALL kinds of weight and just look outstanding for this wedding, but it isn't going to happen.  That isn't the reason I did any of this, but I remember at the beginning of P90X looking at the calendar and thinking this would come in hand; I wouldn't feel like a blimp at the wedding. Well this blimp is going to be at the wedding. Okay, I am being negative.  I know I don't look like a blimp, but I don't look near as good as I was hoping for. UGGGG. I hate being a girl sometimes. Because if I was a guy I would put on my regular wedding attire and not think about it again. But no, us girls have to look pretty and get all dolled up and then we still feel like a blimp. BOOO!!! So I am putting it all on here, on my blog and then I am NOT going to give it a second thought.  This is it folks. I am not going to worry about it again from here on out because I want to enjoy the day and not think about how I failed or could have done better.  It is what it is. And Yes, I know that I have not failed.  My journey is NOT over (I am guessing it never will be), but I was hoping to see better results at this point. Maybe I shouldn't eat like a horse on the weekends!!

Enough of the pity party!

On the positive note I was asked this weekend about being a beachbody consultant and I had to hold my laugh in. I have known this lady for a while now and she is just awesome and so inspirational. So it did feel like an honor to have her ask me. So I was honest with her and told her that I have been thinking about (which I have been,I don't tell y'all ALLmy deepest secrets, LOL), but that I really want to get through P90X first and then attempt Insanity next. If I get to that point I might consider it. The reason I am thinking about it is because I honestly do LOVE P90X.  I know crazy right!! But it has so much in it. There is cardio, weights, push-ups (i don't love push-ups), kick boxing, Yoga, and even some sports moves that I could have used in high school.  It just incorporates so much. different stuff.  Plus I like the challenge of it.  I have found that I really push myself during the workouts now. So what does this have to do with being a consultant?  Well, I want to help other people with their P90X journey.  I realize P90X isn't for everyone (but I seriously think anyone can do it!), so that is why I would like to try another one of their programs to see if I like the whole beachbody company. But I am pretty sure I will. So what do y'all think I should do?? Like I said I won't make any commitments until after I have completed P90X, but I would like to hear some feedback on this. 

Something else I have been curious about is Advocare. There are a few blogs that I read and they are doing a 10 day cleanse.  Now don't freak out, they are still eating their regular meals, but they are CLEAN meals. They posted their menus for the 10 days and I think it is totally do-able. But I am on the fence about it.  I have my doubts. I think I am going to see how their 10 days go and then think about it again.  But have ANY of you done a cleanse before?  If so, what was it and did you like it? Maybe if I did something like this, it would kick my butt into gear on the weekend?

Well that is all the randomness I have for y'all on this Monday. I hope your week started off better than mine.  My darling 2 year old decided he didn't want to get dressed this morning and threw a big fit.  FUN TIMES!!! And I wonder why I am ALWAYS late for EVERYTHING!! Okay, it isn't his fault all the time, I do have this big problem called PROCRASTINATION!!

I really didnt' have any good pictures to share with y'all so I am going to leave you with this one!

 

Have a good week everyone! 

Schedules

Today I want to talk to y'all about schedules.  HOW DO YOU MAKE TIME TO WORK OUT??

Here is a run down of my schedule right now:
6:30 a.m. I wake up (I know I really should get up earlier)
7:00-7:15 - R gets up and I get him ready.  I also throw a load of laundry in before I leave for work.
7:45-8:00 - We are all running out the door frantically. 
8:00-4:00pm - Work
4:00-5:00 pm - I either run or run errands at this time.  Or on rare days when I have no errands to run and I'm letting my body heal, I go pick up R :)
5:00 - 6:30pm - I make dinner and we all scarf it down
6:30-8:00pm - R TIME!!
8:00pm -  bath time for R (husband usually takes care of bath time, so I try my best to get the dishes done during this time)
8:30-9:00 pm - R's bed time
9:15ish -10:30ish - P90X TIME!!
10:30-11:30p.m. - Free time which means I either fold laundry, clean dishes, pick up the house, or simply sit my big butt on the couch and watch some TV. 

 

Last night this is what I did, but if you notice there is a laundry basket there, so you can say I was multi-tasking.  One glass isn't going to kill me and to be honest, I needed it. I have been having a hard time relaxing after P90X and I haven't been able to fall asleep. Wine always helps me with that problem.

I do my best to get my butt to bed by 11:00-11:30.  This gives me about 7 Hours of sleep which isn't bad.  But there are many nights where I do not get to bed before 11:30 and the next day is brutal and I rely on coffee to get me through the day.

People this is why I like routine because from Monday-Friday this is what I am doing during these times.If you call me at any of these times you can look at this schedule and I am 99% sure that this schedule will be right on. Not only is this good for R, but this is good for the whole family! It can get a little boring, but it is essential for this mom!

On the weekends everything changes and our life seems to slow down (for now, since it is winter). I love lazy Saturdays/Sundays because we stay in our PJ's for way longer than people should know about. There are times when R is taking his afternoon nap in his PJ's. WHOOPS!! But that is okay, it is the weekend!! Weekend's are meant for relaxing.  Speaking of naps, that is when this momma gets stuff done.  I either clean bathrooms, deep clean the kitchen, pick-up the WHOLE house! Seriously, being a mom is a much bigger job than I ever thought about.  THANK YOU MOM FOR BEING AN AWESOME MOM!! I seriously don't say that enough to my mom!!

The only problem I have is when we plan something for Saturday evening then my schedule gets a little bit hectic because during nap time is when I work out, which means house work is not getting done. But the beautiful thing about the weekend is that there are 2 days. So what ever I don't get done on Saturday I have to get done on Sunday. But if the world works exactly to my schedule and I get stuff done on Saturday then I can take a guilt free nap on Sunday and that my friends is a glorious day!!!

I use to fret about not having time to work out, but in reality it was just using  an excuse.  I had time. Right now, I don't watch a lot of TV and to be honest I really don't miss it. But I love my DVR because on Thursdays I record Grey's and on Sunday we record The Walking Dead. I am telling you, I will NOT give up those shows. But I also had to make some changes to my daily routine.  I NEVER use to do laundry at 7:45 in the morning and then fold that crap at 10:30 at night, but if I don't do it at these times then that crap doesn't get done. Our house isn't near as organized or as clean.  But that is okay because exercising makes me a better mom.  It really does and I noticed that it makes me a better wife too. As with anything there is some give and take here. And it seems like the longer we do P90X the more I find time here and there to get stuff done.

Okay here is another goal of mine:  I WANT TO BECOME A MORNING PERSON!!! CRAZY, RIGHT!!!

This is what I want to see when I am running in the morning.  Right now it still looks like a winter wonderland outside, but here in the next month I am hoping that I can put some sweats on and a hoodie and get my run on in the morning.  But we will see. I may NEVER be a morning person, but I would like to give it a try this spring. I think if I could accomplish this then my life might not seem so hectic!

Also, I am officially enrolled in my first 5K, thanks to my good friend Caite.  She got on the ball and signed me up on her team. I love having friends that aren't procrastinators like me!   I will be running March 30th in Salina, KS. I am excited and scared all at the same time.  It should be interesting!! I also got a group of ladies to come over and we are going to have a healthy cooking night.  We haven't come up with the menu yet, but I am excited.  Cooking isn't what gets me up in the morning, but there have been some new recipes that I have been wanting to try and I think if I have some friends helping me, I won't be so afraid to try them out.  I love that I have such awesome friends to help me on this journey!!

I am going to leave you with pictures of R. I am sorry, but isn't this kid adorable?!?!?

I was trying to get a picture of him standing up, but he wouldn't have it. Instead I got this gem!

 

 

Don't you love the cowboy boots and superman cape?  Maybe he does take after his momma a little!

 

 

HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND FOLKS!!!